Been a bit of an uppy downy very rocky week this week cuminating in tonight which ill get to,but could do with some advice answers to do with that

Friday 16th December
I spent the day worrying about my date wid Phantom i decided to ring Giant from this forum and had a really good chat wid him in fact i was a half hour late haha but it took my mind of worrying about the date so good ill ill try again.I also borrowed clerks 2 from my m8 propper funny film and following the Jay and Silent Bob theme i seem to have going at the mo.
So i get to her door eventually and she opens it,i dont say anything just grab her a kiss her,she kisses back then goes on to saying cos im so late she didnt think i was coming and hugs me etc.
We end up getting a chinese and chilling out on the couch pissing ourselves laughing watching the film.Also chat a bit at some point i drop in "im real choosy wid women,i dont sleep with every one that throws themselves at me" and that "i dont much care about getting laid,and prefer to wait till the time is right" or words to that effect. Through out the night i kiss her deeply then stop and then do it again but just a little bit more,to the point where i have my hands in her bra and shes loving it.So about half 12 shes like i think its time for bed,which by the way she says it is like lets fuck!! So with all my will as im thinking i should be taking her upstairs to fuck?? i start getting my stuff and im like i better go if your going bed,she looks a bit dumb founded.But lets me out the door and shes like your on lates arnt u?? well ill text u you come over one night after work.
So im like its only half 12 ill head to town,towns dead.So im like ill drop in on backup,shes still up watching a dvd in bed so i join her,its a harry potter one:S.Were chilling getting cosy and her ex fiance from yrs ago arrives,hes an ok dude but feels like a cock block.Anyways usually id curb my talk but im like fuck it whatever,like at one point Ron weasely (in the film) is under the effects of a love potion,im like he looks like hes getting a bj haha shes like yeh it looks like u and im like well u would know what i look like getting a bj in front of him and things like that totally not caring and he didnt say anything.I end up falling asleep on bakups tits haha.

Saturday 17th December

I wake up feeling like shit
So i head back to mine,im spossed to be meet black cat a 12 but shes the last thing i need right now.She apparently stayed at a m8s the night before.Anyways i lie on bed till 4ish ignoring her texts and calls all day.I eventually answer to get her to stop fucking ringing,5 mins later and she woulda got on the bus to her dads.
I meet her in the pub,funnily enuff talking to one of my best buds in the world whos back from working away.
Hes like i knew ud be meeting her,points at black cat and shakes his head.We chill in the pub for a bit as black cat gets more and more annoying.Im like lets get sum pizza and go mine for abit its way 2 early!!
So we do,we all end up coming back at 6ish and low and behold the smoking hot goth chick that i subconciously left the convo with the week before and didnt get to open is in the pub wid all the peeps i was talking to for the other day,all playing pool.I say to my m8 who knows about my pua journey.Im like i get a boner looking at her!!. joke!!! "im gona fuck her before i die even if i have to drag her down a dark alley and rape her haha".
The good old boy sets me up with some awsome material etc (sat either side of goth chick) ie ,she applies black lipstick,he to me"damn i bet you like watching her do that" me "im getting a semi watching her" then i point to my neck "i think your gona have to kiss me before i go insane" she does!! (i end up walking round with a black lipstick mark on my neck all night).We play pool and have a bit of a laugh,but in the end after another hourish she leaves with her m8.I was still 2 nervy with her i think,forgot to get her number so fluffed it a bit.The next day on facebook said hi but she barely answered me and after 2-3 msgs stopped answering full stop,so not quite there yet.

Anyways some other friends show with a board game called "Munchkin" im not one for boardgames usually especially not in a pub but Black cats doing my head in and my m8 is like come on dude lets have a shot,im like ok.
So theres a table full of 8 of us playing this game.It very quickly becomes apparent that i and my friend seem to have the two strongest mindsets at the table as we fart about ganging up on people and back stabbing each other and making a lot of noise and having lots of laughs.I look round to see randoms hanging about our table to see whats going on as were obv having so much fun.
Suddenly i feel a tap on the shoulder,its not black cat as i sent her out for a fag she was pissing me off so much,i look round i see awsome legs,then awsome body,then pretty face then ulp blond hair noooo,shes grabs my arm and shes like u dont recognise me do you?? im like "yeh your my ex from 10yrs agos best m8,got to say you got a lot sexier now tho" (she used to be propper nerdy looking ) "im not sure about your blond mop tho what happened to the loverly black hair??" We talk a bit and shes like im heading to the beer garden,im like ill be out in a bit.
My m8s like whos that??? im like exs m8 hes like mmm u should go for it im like no shes blond!! hes like so if u only speak to smoking hot and single goths you`ll only open 3 times a year!! and you might miss out big time!! im like ok dude maybe i can talk her into re dying black at a later date haha.
So i get another dude to play my turn till im back and go speak to exs m8. Shes outside with her older m8 from work.So i sail in and sit next to her arm round her and after basic intro chat i say "im on a date tonight" (sort of was with black cat) "but its not going well,i wish i could just drop her and have a date with you instead!!" she is like "well maybe you should!!" "I was like the thing is she cant get home so she has to stay at mine tonight".
i end up making her pinky promise me a propper date and she makes me pinky promise her a dance which seems fair,plus i remeber the number this time.The upshot of the rest of the night is im juggling exs m8,black cat and the board game haha it was real fun actually,diverting black cat so i can get over to exs m8 for a snog haha.I think the funniest bit was when one of the guys playing the board game had obviously seen me snog the face of Black cat and as he came out the toilet clocked me with exs m8 doing the same to her,to see his face as he slowly figured out what was going on was a fucking picture.Unforunately black cat puts her bag down and wanders off chatting then wonders why it gets stolen!! then expects me to find it,my m8s like just tell her to fuck off!! shes a twat!! im like i cant im not a bastard hes like ur still way 2 soft!! so we cant find the bag and she bursts into tears making a massive scene then and there i decide shes gone for good in the morning ive had enuff!! So im pissed off cos shes wingeing about going at half bloody 12 when its busy for a change and im having loads of fun!!
I got to say goodbye to exs m8 and shes likea ru gona fuck her?? im like no way shes on the couch!!
I take her home and give black cat a pearl necklace to say goodbye haha

Sunday 18th December

I make sure the door doesnt hit black cat on the ass as she leaves
Later that day i ring exs m8 and we chat for a good bit,turns out shes a teacher which is good for the inteligent talk etc fit and clever haha
convo is good turns out shes been single for a week so i got in quick
and i arrange for us to have our date on saturday chrisitmas eve.


through the week update, Phantom texts me some utter filth for a few days saturday-sunday then nothing!!! i text her monday night saying "when did we arrange to meet as i cant remeber" even tho we didnt decide on a day.No answer.I takes all my will to keep from ringing her and tonight im like ill give "back up" a shout as theyre bessie m8s she will know whats going on.Thinking shes probs outa credit or sumat.So backups out in the pub with the nob squad :S i drop in in fairly good spirits if a bit tired after work shes had a couple but not pissed.Im like u spoke to Phantom lately.Shes like i speak to her everyday we work together.So i tell her about not having any answer shes like "well shes not into you like that i dont think,shes not looking for a full time relationship" i was like "i never said i wanted one?!" after a bit fo talk about her fucking someone else.This to me was a total kick in the balls!! she says " well she said i was better than you in bed when we were having that threesome!!" this fucking stunned me as i strived to make that a possitive experience for all involved,it made me think of the disspearing from the pub and leaving me,standing me up and of them laughing at me behind my back,it all sorta clicked in place.I thought of all the chats me and backup have had over the past few months and how she knows about my sexual hang ups and how she knew how burnt that comment would make me feel.Plus all the help and support id given her asking nothing in return nor expecting anything.I even before i did go on a date with Phantom, i asked her how she felt about me going on a date with her she said it was totally cool.I tried not to react or show anything at all to her.But after 20mins of stewing on it and saying nothing,i was like im tired and hungry im going home,shes like "u ok" im like "yeh",she like look at me in the eyes and say that,i ignore her and storm off.As i get in she rings me and thats it i fucking loose it on the phone cant really remeber what i said and it was a pretty stupid thing to do,but actually trying not to react made me react more

Questions

What do i do about these women?? i thought about dropping the lot!!
If Phantom aint got the balls to tell me she aint interested, so what shes gone as a shag interest,and back up also.The problem is in a small town you cant just drop people and never see em again theyre both part of the small alternative community in my town so i will see them sooner rather than later.Im thinking of being a bit aloof and not flirty or kino and not hanging at back ups flat all the time anymore and just being friendly when out but keeping my distance.I wish id been more careful what i told women as Alpha D warned me!! they`l use that shit against u!! i dont think mine and back ups friendship will be the same again again.

Thoughts

.Im down to no women again,so quickly:S well i do have my date with exs m8,but thats it!!

.I cant understand how what i thought was a date went well with Phantom went so bad for her.Maybe she just wants to fuck different guys and i got the wrong end of the stick maybe i shoulda went with my gut feeling and fucked her that night,maybe it might have panned out different??

.As shown on saturday still way 2 nice!!

.Not funny enough STILL!! need more laughs.Im gona put up a separate thread on the forum when i get a mo,as its deffo my main weakness from what i can tell.If im funnier im sure ill get further!!

.I plan to go out every night if theres anyone out and about every night from 22nd dec to monday 2nd jan apart from christmas day!! try to get more socal feedback.

.Ive always wanted to be the guy who people ring and invite to things and events etc i never have been.A load of friends went of to a bigger city sunday evening and i wasnt invited,it kinda irked me even tho i couldnt go as they were staying over,itd be nice for someone to ring me wantng to spend time with me rather than me always making the effort.I hope this will change as time goes on.

WHAT THE FUCK.
You got invited upstairs?
WHY DID YOU LEAVE
WHYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYY

Awesome social proof from the kiss on the neck...

Jealous blondie - NICE
You mention she is recently single,, get some sex, DO NOT expect LTR.....

She said comments about you being shit in bed because she is jealous because you are fucking her best friend...
Bad move, you should have held it in and let loose on the forum or to one of the forum dudes! You shown her your weaknesses.. but oh well.. she's just a girl

Your Questions
First answer:
Continue fucking ALL OF THEM!!!
BUT - STOP talking to them about each other. This is your slip up.
You have women on the go, you're getting laid (or at least the offers are rolling in), but you are talking to them about the others. Yes it makes them slightly jealous, but too jealous and they fucking ruin your ego with one smooth comment about preferring women.

I think you'll find Phantom is interested, just her mate wanted to end your fuck buddy relationship.

Continue at backups flat.. say you were just in a shitty mood.. get comfortable with her.. more kino, more flirting, but FOCUS on her and DO NOT MENTION OTHER GIRLS.. shit, tell her you're only interested in her.. bet she would continue fucking you

I still stand by what I said - careful what you tell women, they can be evil in many ways

Your Thoughts
I bet Phantom hasn't even fucked anyone else. Even if she has, so what, so have you.

I seriously doubt your funnyness is affecting your lays. Yes women like humor. But I'm not that funny, I'm quite a serious person, and I get laid.. You seem to have it decent enough with the humor.. you have crowds round watching you and your mate fuck about.. thats good shit

As for your last paragraph about not being invited. I've always been like that. I think there are two types of people. Ones that get invited to events n shit. Ones that don't.
However I think the solution is.. for you to be the INVITER. Make an event and get everyone to go... your social proof keeps rising, keep it up man

thats a good call make the event myself,its still an aim to be the invited cool guy tho! rather than the guy who always feels (probs not the truth tho) left out of stuff like that

As always Alpha big thumbs up for you advice,think ur one of the few that can be arsed with my waffling haha

Im gona do daily reports this week as im out a lot and i doubt ill remeber much of it if i dont log daily.For a start thursday was a fail i passed the pub after work it looked busy so i went home to get changed and have some food put facebook book on and started chatting to a faily hot chick on there and that was it,i spent 2 hrs chatting and trying to number drop her to no avail :S
By the town i hit town it was half one everywhere was dead,so i had half a coke and came home.Bad Lovefish!!

Friday 23rd December

I hit town half 9ish as my m8 from the week before was out since 5 and was bugging me.When i arrived he was pretty pissed but handling it.As the pub was still pretty dead i noticed a hottie who used to serve me in another pub years ago sat at a table with 2guys and 2 other girls,i was thinking about opening for a good while 2 long then my m8s like u should go talk to them.By that time i had thought waay 2 much about it and psyched myself out of it i started making excuses like oh thats probs her bf or blah blah.I shoulda just gone and opened!!
The thing i love about hanging with my m8 is he either knows loadsa people or makes an opening at tables for me i might avoid normally.So we wander and find this table full of 18yr old girls mainly a few guys 2,my m8s been knobing one of em and starts chatting,and i open as im known by association.After a bit i get chatting 2 a blond and the interaction seems to be going well,her m8 (hotter than blondie but with bf) drops into tool me saying "how old are you" im like "29" she "god your old" i say "more like experienced" she gives me a lil smile and im like "now now dirty mind there lol" in the end one of blondies m8s gets kicked out so she has to leave so i get the number before she goes.
My m8 by this time is so pissed i carry him home and head back into town.
I then start talking to a guy who i know fairly well and very experienced with women (rep as big player in town) i told him im trying to get better with women first of he warns me about having a rep around town as now he is struggling to find anyone who he can have an ltr with!! i explained i was in no danger of that rep at present but i wasnt planning on staying in this town much longer anyways.So i get to talking about the threesome situation i had earlier in the week,he was like keep it a one of always otherwise like with you one will get jelous and it always turns out badly.
I then open an oriental bird and have a good interaction with her i escort her to the shop as she has lost her rizzlas,shes moving to London in 2 weeks but i dropped her number anyways.
As i come in the door i spot a girl from my old school i used to cream over shes a body builder now,as i was just coming back with oriental chick and hadnt number dropped i just had a quick interaction with a view to returning to her to have a propper conversation.But as i finish with oriental and am just getting near to her a 20 man brawl breaks out in the bar area,i have to dodge a flying pint glass and bodybuilder chick gets punched in the face,not good as as soon as its sorted and people removed etc she goes
Next i end up talking to a mate about pua as hes still not over his ex and they split up in september!! Im thinking i need to be careful how many peeps i tell about this as if theres a load of us its gona make my life even harder haha.However a few new forum members wouldnt be a bad thing!!
My ex (exs m8s m8 haha) turned up and i tried to get in there but she totally tooled me about my bug flesh tunnels and glittery scarf id borrowed of my m8 for a laugh,instead of not reacting i blurted the whole story etc and the whole thing didnt really go anywhere,plus i tried her sister later even hotter and that didnt go anywhere either
The rest of the night got lamer and lamer i started getting a headache which slowly got worse,i opened a white chick from Zimbabwe which wasnt going to bad,but as i went for a piss my m8 breezed in and carried on where i left off,i wasnt 2 fussed to be fair she wernt nothing special and she spoke so quietly it was driving me nuts saying "WHAT" all the time even after i told her i was deaf in one ear ggrr
At the end of the night i got a fat chicks number,i dno why some token attempt to make my openers up or sumat,it was lame i deleted it after i got home.

saturday 24th december DAY
Spent today in town with my bud i carried home last night and some chick and her m8 it was a laugh but he was obv trana set me up with the ugly one,i was like no way man!!
I ended speaking to a few chicks i knew in town most said theyd be out tonight
Also bumped into smoking hot goth chick in town with some guy with emo hair ggrr,tbh i was just farting around and didnt bother 2 much with her,which i think was the best thing to be doing anyways.
Ive learnt a lot today just watching and hanging with the my bud,again he speaks to everyone!!! he is so possitive and nothing phases him.Where he is is deffo where i want to be going.Im not hero worshiping him but he does have the mindset i want,I was making my own fun 2.But being with that dude makes me feel more free to be authentic!!So im going out with him again 2nyte and im hopefully meeting exs m8 at sumpoint 2

Saturday 24th December

Bit of a lame one tonight
I made a real effort with my looks wore my least skuzzy gear and thought i looked damn good
Backup rang me...ignore
Headed into town...dead but a few of my buds are about so all is cool.Basically the pubs is dead for hours its totally lame so i check out a few other pubs and theyre dead also, so i head back to the original in time to meet exs m8.Well this turns out to be the shortest date in the history of my life.She turns up with her m8s and a guy on her arm.She looks fucking amazing im like WOW then she says to me "im with someone tonight,so im going now" Im say "cya then" and walk of no reaction at all,so fucking proud of myself for how i acted and also none thats right NO emotional feeling inside i truly couldnt of gave a crap
So i do a few openers around and about but it was a bit of a sausage fest.First i open a girl by the bar,so we get to talking then she says "will you buy me a drink??" I say shaking my head "aawww im disapointed you were doing so well there tut tut" she flirts with me loads and i get close but her fat m8 comes up from behind and before i can include her in the interaction shes dragged her off.I watch this chick a bit all nyte she is obviously an attention junkie and everytime a guy talks to her (pretty often as shes hot) but mainly cos shes a bit mashed fatty and her friends always cock block.
Backup turns up and pretty much spends the rest of the night throwing herself at me of which i deflect all advances!!
My m8 opens a 2 set in the beer garden so as hes chatting to one i get chatting to her m8 both hot,which initially goes well but then 2 of my m8s turn up and start cock blocking/trying to get in there also.This soon becomes uncomfortable for her i try to carry on ignoring them but three guys talking over each other at the same time was never gona go well.She and her friend leave soon after that.I said to one of the lads what were u doing there uv got a bird and u saw i was chatting to that chick dont be such a knob i wouldnt do that to you!! i know in real life im gona get cock blocked regularly and i need to learn how to handle this so i wasnt 2 pissed off about it.The rest of the night the place just got deader and deader my m8 buggered off with a girl and i got more and more bored.The thought did cross my mind of trying to fuck backup but she was wasted by this time and i couldnt be assed by this.

I didnt get one number/kiss or anything tonight.
This was due to my town being dead which im realizing is hurting me more and more.
Im still wussing out!! i could have done a good few more openers and maybe got a few more numbers!!

Question

How do you guys/did you guys stop yourself from wussing out on opening a hot chick/s???
Im finding it way 2 easy to make up some lame excuse not 2 then i kick myself for not doing it

Spent christmas day evening at backups with a few m8s had a laugh.Tho i was keeping backup at arms length still.
Only pua type stuff i did was text every girl on my phone "merry christmas X" got a few answers back then text "what did santa bring you???" etc got chatting to a few girls including Phantom who i have arranged to see this week

monday 26th December
Went out with my buds for a bit but one of em was a bit depressed and went home.Town was dead ish so i got a few openers in but mainly just dicking around with my mates as nothing was doing.I spent quite sometime chatting and flirty with backups other m8 who was a tall leggy blonde (why the blonds suddenly??) but it quickly became aparent she was very much in love with this other guy i know tho i did feel we clicked,so possibly one for the future who knows??.
Anways i end up at backups with a few others when the pubs get out.I drop off for a bit but when i wake everyones gona apart form me and back up.She says "i slept with your m8 last night but i regret it now,i really wish it was you.Im sorry" i wasnt and am still not that fussed about it.I just grabbed her and kissed her and then layed her.Soon as she was asleep i grabbed my stuff and buggered off.One clanger tho she dropped the L word!!! after we had finished i may have to watch myself there!!

So it looks like things may be back on with both Backup and Phantom!!
You were right Alpha!! Backup was obv jelous of the extra attention Phantom was getting from me and tried to fuck it up!! But as i sorted meeting Phantom and she made no mention of not liking me etc it leads me to believe that she never stopped liking me like u said.She didnt txt like she said tho? maybe she likes being persued or forgot idk??
Anyways this time theres no chance of me mentioning one to the other at all!!

Good weekend by the looks of things! If she's dropping the L word I'd cut loose champ, nothing good will come of this other than tears for her and a ballache for you...

Good luck with Phantom!

Yeh it wasnt a bad weekend at all mate,im wishing id took more chances to open something im going to change this weekend!!!
Yeh thats the plan m8,i had a chat with a bud today who has known backup for way longer than i, he says she tries to fuck up other peoples relationships if theyve fucked her and then fucked her off!!So be rid!!
I txt Phantom tonight say "im coming over 2mora nyte so you best be ready for me haha X" But i havent had an answer i can maybe see this one going by the wayside also.
However ive lined up a day 2 with an irish,goth singer songwriter on friday night,so im not overly fussed about her haha

Wow late doing this this week,my excuse is ive been ill
Right last wednesday i went and fucked backup again bad move but ah well i was horny what can i say
Thursday i was meant to have a 2nd date with phantom but she flaked,as far as im concerned im done with her now.I can be arsed chasing her around etc move on.

Friday 30th December

I dont really remeber much of note happening apart from telling my mate about Rabbids forfeit suggestion and him saying ok lets do it.
It was fairly busy in town.I didnt feel i had a strong night at all with interactions i really struggled ie my mate points out a 3 set with one real hottie in the group,so i go and open i felt i kept all three involved but where as i seemed to hook in the not so hot ones i couldnt seem to hold the hotties attention at all she just brushed me off.Im not beating myself up tho as my mate was pointing out 4-5 sets for me to open which i have never done before i normally stick to 1-2 sets which im more comfortable with so not bad.

Saturday 31st December

Town was totally dead i think everyone got invited to house parties apart from me and my m8s.It was such a let down i was raring to go all day and get out and barely any hot girls with no bfs.I thought i had a good chance with my m8s friend who he asked about me (i didnt ask him to btw) she said i was cool.I should of went for it when my m8 was grinding with her mate at the bar i should have done the same to her, i saw the opening to but i psyched myself out and fluffed it ggrr shes now buggered of back down to london
I have been flirty loads with a goth chick who always wears a corset and i make a point of winding her up etc.Well shes as bad back to me but her bf is real over protective and i caused a massive argument of which she storms off crying.Still she got my number that night and is now texting me loads,so a potential if things dont work out with her and her bf,things seem pretty ropey there.
Then backup came out with her ex.I wasnt fussed at first,but then they were on about phantom and some sexual connotations of going down to her house later on and spooning etc.This really got up my nose,it shouldnt have but it did,plus i started to feel like i was slowly becoming backups orbiter rather than fuck buddy.So im going to drop the lot,obv ill see em in town but im going to try to get some fresh girls, (scary saying that and hard,feels like starting over all over again) none of them are all that i can do better!!

Thoughts

.Ive got a few potentials on the horizon so ill see how this new year goes.

.Oh and ive had an extension with my job till at least a week on friday as they totally forgot about my review,im still not possitive but its an extra weeks work

.I need to leave Skyrim the hell alone i wasted so much time on my damn x box over the christmas period,i feel like i should/could have done something so much more constructive with my time!!

Lol that doesn't sound like the most positive outlook for the New Year!