Been planning on starting a field diary/waffle section of a few weeks now.Mainly to try to keep a well recorded diary of my progress and also get some comments and pointers as i go on fixing problems and mistakes.
I havent bothered till now as where i live was totally dead the past 2 weekends up until this one so i had nothing to report on.This one just gone has been my most successful weekend since i started this whole thing,but also ive learnt a lot,maybe things have sunk in a lil bit more maybe.Before i get started also,big big thanks to all that posted on my thread with a poem on a few weeks back and thanks for telling me straight.It was deffo what i needed to hear ive read those comments everyday since i put it up trying to internalise the comments more.
Ps just as a comment to those that think looks matter when doing this all weekend i did not wash or change my clothes,do my hair,i had about 4hrs sleep and hadnt had a shave for 2 weeks!!

friday 25th Nov

Ive been hanging at this chicks house the past few weeks,shes a good laugh and her flat is a great place to hang and meet new peeps.Id been thinking of using her as a backup shag as she has nice tits and is a pretty good laugh,but i aint been 2 fussed about it ie the weekend before we fell asleep together,but her couch was uncomfy so i did a disapearing act to my place round the corner to sleep in my bed.Anyways shes been txting me ru out 2nyte im like yeh ok then.I head out first to a one pub then the next fairly quiet in town all nyte cant remeber 2 much tbh i had a few unsuccessful openers but that was about it,spent most of it chatting to an old m8 i hadnt seen in ages.Anyways backups m8 has an argument with some guy whos knobbing his ex and storms back 2 her flat followed by her other m8,followed by us.After chilling for a bit,the m8s go crash on backups bed and we chill on the couches pushed together watching a dvd.So i think fuck this and kiss her,shes like wow ive liked u for years you took your time making your move haha.So i end up laying her and falling asleep.Tho as usual i sneak out and do another disapearing act.

saturday 26th november

Total day of craziness emotional rollercoaster ride tbh.I dont go sleep cos i got training and got stuff to do.I figure ill catch some sleep in the afternoon,which never happens as one of my rats die,which totally guts me its always the good ones that go doh
Anyways im like fuck this im not going out 2nyte,but i promised my m8 id come watch his band and theres no way im ever breaking a promise,so im like ill go watch the band then come home.backup txts me shes at her m8s all nyte,i dont answer.I head out to where his bands playing the place is totally rammed with hot chicks to the rafters,rat is swiftly forgotten haha.
I spy my m8s huddling like penguins for protection with their beer shilds up "sigh" i get chatting to one guy and we get to chatting about him being single for 3yrs hes like im happy tho,blatant lie.Im like ur not happy are you!! no i am!! then hes like wow shes hot i turn round and see i know her so im like watch this i turn round and some hot chick (hottest chick in the pub actually) i used to work with and with her my tattooists gf and their fat m8 walk past.I grab hot chick round the waist and pull her in and start kinoing her and chatting away,then after a bit im like go dance while i talk to my m8.Im like did u see that!! its easy and hes like im happy single!!
frustrated i wander off i actually am nick named the "butterfly" cos i seem to just float about venues im in talking to people haha.Anyways i bump into another girl m8 out with the mothers crew 3 milfs mmm one just become single,so i sit down with em and get chatting eventually im like "your all pretty hot milfs" grabbing the single ones hand,"dya recon you could spray milk in my mouth from over your side of the table if u got ur baps out",they all fell about the place pissing themselves laughing.Then some guy sits down aparently hed got a bj of single milf a few weeks b4.Well that completely screwed it for me,im trying to neg this dude but its not working.So im like fuck this and eject after getting her number (shes now wid the fathers dad again now).
I then bump into a girl i was chatting to the week before outside,she has a giant dragon tattoo on her back so im like hey dragon lady and start chatting.After a bit she gets on about how she always makes the fry up in the morning for people after a party,so i was like im having a party at mine after the pub up gona make me! a fry up!! she just froze up it was wierd eject eject me thinks (turns up shes a lesbian and her gf was sat next 2 her listening to me haha).
I bump into a guy i havent seen in ages,turns out hes been single for 10yrs!!! hes been trying to impress this girl whos cavorting with one of his m8s,he looks crushed it totally takes me back to when i first came on the forum!! I was like u heard of a book called the game?? hes like "no" i was like buy it,read it and call me!! in fact ill meet u for a chat on friday afternoon!!
I did a few other openers with varying degrees of success think i dropped a number but that was about it.Right im like fuck this i want that hot girl from earlier.Shes pretty pissed dancing wid her m8s surrounded by about five 18yr olds total cock fest.Im stood just of the dance floor hanging wid a m8,so im like hey!!! come her!! shes like what?? i point for her to come to me.So she come over to me,i immediately claw her in to me.I start talking to her its a bit rocky tho,im thinking fuck im not getting anywhere.So i last gasp go i thought u were an alternative chick?? she like i am? i go well why are you dressed like a chaver then and laugh in her face,i get the death stare from her,i then carry this spiel on for a bit longer going on about her loving towny lads like them,pointing at the 18yr olds looking on and laughing,then quickly go on to do some rsd Jeffy chode satire "whats your name,whats your number,can i buy you a drink"etc you can tell she knows what im on about.So i go in for the kiss as shes laughing and just as we start kissing fatty aparently in a bad mood cos one of the cock fest guys was a dick to her, drags her away from me ggrr and all three of them promptly go home soon after,none wid blokes.
By this time backup has changed her mind and come out she got a lift from one of her exs and its another of her exs birthdays 2.So shes like hes at some other venue.I was like sure ill come along wid u.Well we get in there and it full of people old enuff to be my parents and backups exs are all over her trying to grope her and shit.Sleeping with her again was on my mind but i realized i was looking like i was hanging round wid my dick in my hand looking like a desperate chump,so i said to her i was off home,she said she would text me later but i didnt say anything.tbh all the way walking home i was telling myself i shouldnt care that i was alone but i did a bit i think if she had been the smoking hot girl i would have felt really burned. So i crash out on my couch.

sunday 27th novemeber

I get woken up 4-5 hrs later by backup ringing me,im like "what dya want" grumpily shes like "i miss u,come over" im like gimme a bit im hungry lemme get some breakfast.i throw some viagra down my neck as i didnt last long the night before and head out.So i get over there shes at the door looking slightly pissed shes like ive been drinking a bit of rum and ive not been to sleep yet.So we start kissing and i drag her into the bedroom and get under the covers,she start giving me a hand job.Suddenly out the blue another chick bursts in the bedroom like a fucking phantom shes like "fucking hell you never said he was that fit" at me.I was like u got that right haha.Anyways phantom explains whilst im still getting a handjob thats some creepy guy i ejected from the flat the week before for being creepy and annoying everyone, was being well creepy and annoying again (backup was 2 nice to tell him to fuck off),txting her shit like i wanna grab your tits etc whilst being in the same room as her.Which is freaking her out,so im like get under the covers.So whilst she gets under i do a wonderful impression of this guy,I said "ooohhh can i grab ur tits" and just grabbed em actually didnt mean to but ah well.
Anyways this guy knocks on the door so phantom hides under the covers and creepy guy opens the door me and backup pretend to be asleep."Hes like have u seen a girl leave the flat??" "im like no i havent shes probs gone like you should be!!" "hes like can i hang in here with you guys??" well im still getting a handjob from back up and i can feel myself starting to lose my temper as this guy seems intent on cock blocking me.I tell him to get out before i make him,he starts giving me shit and thats it i lose the plot not my finest moment but im certain it set of emotions haha plus i knew ive been doing mma for quite a few months and this guys a short 18-19 yr old i know i can handle this guy and theres now way im letting this guy mess up me getting laid not today!! So i fly out of bed in my boxer shorts and basically physically eject this guy face first down the outside steps.I then come back to the bedroom and im like fuck this get inbetween backup and phantom,first i kiss backup deeply then phantom then push their faces together.Boom hell yeh before i know it im on for a threesome
Tho for some reason the viagra is doing fuck all.Its starts of well but i decide i wanna finish up wid phantom as she is a bit fitter than backup,so i take it easy on backup to make sure,maybe she figured that was my plan as towards the end of bussiness when im laying phantom she just lies there when i tell her to sit on phantoms face ggrr.After im done i go to clean up but when i get back into bed i get in next to phantom not thinking about it,phantoms all over me still,but soon i realize backup is getting left out so i move phantom and get in the middle so both can cuddle me.I then take the time to find out phantoms name!! and have a chat wid her turns out she likes folk music so i use a cambridge folk festival plot line about us going together.Plus turns out both girls are best m8s at work and she was out in the same venue as me the nyte before but id some how missed her on went home before she turned up?? anyways she has to go so i give her my phone and say u know what to do!!
Now phantoms gone the viagra finally kicks in nearly and hour and a half later!!Backups still acting funny so i get going on her for absolutely ages that seems to the chill her out.Ive now go to go cos im way behind on stuff ive got 2 do.So i leave backup to sleep it off.
The rest of the day its like the volume has been turned down and it felt like if my flat burned down i could handle the situation with ease whatever happened.If this was a small example of being a natural for the whole afternoon i want it permanent!!! amazing i was totally alpha all afternoon and i now know what it is like to be in state as on saturday i was on amazing form wow.

Backup rang me monday and i went to hang with her we just chill and watch drag me to hell,not the horniest film ever lol nothing happens and i dont worry about it much tbh
tuesday phantom was supposed to come over i was thinking about it all day even banged a film on but couldnt help it i was still thinking about her,she then doesnt show when she says she would,im like leave it leave it,after a half hour of fretting i text her she like im at backups having a cup of tea,then an hour later shes like im really tired luv can we do another nyte thursday or friday?? i was like i might be free friday ill text u closer 2 it!! in my head this feels like a conspiracy or sumat.I need to stop thinking about it!!!
Night off people 2nyte then i got a m8 over 2mora shes a female chode i guess.Ive been trying to help her shes been chasing this guy for ages and ive been trying to drop hints but she wasnt getting it.She then txts me saying he went on a date with another girl i was like good!! and explained a few home truths to her about what i have seen of the situation (i seem to be getting way better at reading interactions with people) so maybe i can help her!!

thoughts
i seem to be moving away from some of my chode m8s.Im trying to hang wid alpha guys i can watch and learn from as well as they seem to make me look better.
Giving value is good and i really like helping people as well as it seems to help my social proof as well as i like doing it.
Advantage of small towns is it is easier to get social proof,as long as its good proof it can really help your cause.
I still need to work on congruence im still way 2 outcome dependant i still keep getting that wierd empty feeling inside urgh even tho i keep telling myself its bullshit.The same with thinking about girls coming over 2 much.
I still need to take the piss out of women more,still way 2 nice!!
Im finally starting to see what not caring about sex can do,saying what you think without thinking about it and just doing rather than thinking about it, being demanding is also great.
I have someone coming to see me everyday this week or im going to hang with someone,this has never happened before now it was just me in my flat on my own,this is progress and more social interactions 2.
My self confidence seems to be slowly boosting up.
I am now truly starting to see why this is called "game" this is more addictive than xbox,i now live for the weekends, i think of it like an rpg you get a tough bit u get stuck on and cant do so you keep dying then suddenly you get a break through and you level up plus sometimes you get a perk with that haha
WOW major life goal achieved sumat i never thought i would have had especially this early in the scheme of doing this,maybe a case of right place right time right actions?!
ps it turns out phantoms older brother used to beat me up at school,ah feels like karma came back around finally haha

Nice job on using line breaks, makes it easier reading!

The first girl you layed, nice!! But you should have stayed for some morning fun!

The nickname butterfly is people envious cos they too scared to be like that, nice one!

You said: "im trying to neg this dude". NO. 1) you mean AMOG and 2) that makes you look like a little bitch for being affected by him. You need to be unreactive, and not give a shit. If she's in to you, then thats that! Ignore everyone else. NEVER NEG

Kudos for flirting with lesbians, just laugh about it, not eject say it would be cool to hang out then just fuck all her bi and straight female friends!


Hahahahaha... "Now phantoms gone the viagra finally kicks in nearly and hour and a half later!!Backups still acting funny so i get going on her for absolutely ages that seems to the chill her out.Ive now go to go cos im way behind on stuff ive got 2 do.So i leave backup to sleep it off." Fucking love that. She's being mardy so you fuck her brains out and it chills her out. NICE

Seems like all is going well for you dude,

Now have a frickin bath and a shave, buy some nice clothes and make some porn with the threesome chicks!

All sounds very debauched and good fun! Good report - looking forward to next installment

Right im finding it hard to get any spare time (tho i wasted quite a bit earlier this week...read on) to get on here so wednesday is forum night no ifs or buts about it!!
Right i was gona say if last week was week of the champ! this was week of the chump,but i wouldnt be that hard on myself probs the week of the wobbles more like.It was always gona be hard to beat the highs of last week tho!!

Right since last i was on id arranged to meet a dirty talking goth chick.We started talking on the wednesday for 4hrs and again the thursday all got very sordid very quickly and some of the shit she was saying i was like damn!! however in hind sight all very needy and time wasted.Instead of getting hot and horny and talking dirty on facebook i should have been doing it in my bedroom!! plus she had to call the converstaion quits on the thursday while i was almost begging her to stay online,i was also on day shift and finishing talking at 2am then getting up for work at 5.30am is never smart!!

The upshot of this is we arranged to meet on saturday then changed to friday 2nd december.I decided i wanted a new rat as the cage was looking a bit empty after the other one died and she should help me pick (ended up getting 2 in the end couldnt choose haha) So i met her at the bus stop in town first thing i though was damn she must be good wid cameras as she went from an 8 on facebook to a 6 in person:S So we went from getting rats to mine, straight away i start thinking her name for the forum is gona be "Black cat" haha as if i said my dogs big her dog is bigger,if my cats black her cats blacker!! So back at mine im like uv never seen the Rocky horror show have u?? shes like no im like ur missing out big time.So i bang it on and after a half hour she says its crap ggrr im like ok she hates one of my favorite films ever this isnt going well in my head.Anyways she turns out to be a total twat tbh she tried to tell me Edd Sheeran is black,she had an original copy of Salvador Dalis metamorphosis of narcissus but wouldnt sell it as it was her nans etc total lies all the time really. S im about ready to boot her out and i think ah well i might as well fuck her before im rid.So i not really giving two fucks about her just grab her drag her to the bedroom and use and abuse her like shes a piece of meat,tell u what absolutely amazing sex,she has 3 tongue piercings and she will do anything and i mean ANYTHING!! i tell her to do WOW!!!

Saturday 3rd dec
Black cats still here,she stayed the night i fuck her again in the morning,then as im trying to think of excuses to be rid her mum rings and says she got to baby sit her sisters woo thank god.
I text Phantom as we were meant to meet in the week ...nothing and friday....nothing shes like oh i forgot :S im like u best be about tonight or ur gona fall into my naughty books!! :P.She promises she will be out.
Im busy in town all day and as im berating myself for missing out on a potentially awsome night in town the night before so my m8 said,i decide to open in town for a try (never done day game) i did a bout 2-3 nervous openers which were lame at best they didnt go well that for sure.But then i spy my tattooist in town with a hottie I know it must be his m8 as im m8s wid his bird.So i start by talking about saturday night wid his bird and the hottie surrounded by chodes (view above main post),i start doing the chode satire again with my arm round hottie etc she pisses herself,then i look over and a pakisani stall holder keeps walking about and staring at her im like that ur bf haha again she pisses herself,i sort of carry on talking for ages and keep going right ill go now then remeber something and carry on,unintentional false time constraint i recon.As im about to go i go so u out around christmas?? My tat guy is like if my sis can get in!! doh turns out shes his 17yr old sister.I get her facebook name and add her but i aint gona do shit its way 2 dodgy with me being so much older plus i dont want my m8s falling out wid me over it as it will screw my tattoo discount 2 haha
So i get a phone call from back up wanna come hers before town,im like cool.Drop in late as usual and chat shit,after a bit she has a go at me about my beard and chest hair and how she hates it,im like if its that bad why is it when ever u have half a shandy and get a bit horny u suddenly want me to squirt my man fat up u then?? haha she just pulls a face at me.Tbh i cant see me and back up fucking much more as the more interested i seem to get with Phantom the more we just seem to be friends!!
This is when things start to go down hill:s
We meet Phantom and her chavy type m8 in town and head to a small pub with bands playing,my states pretty good i hold Phantoms hand have a laugh and joke i grab her bum,as shes got a real nice short dress on that shows her awsome legs.I feel like i shoulda gone in for the kiss but i didnt silly really.I get introduced to their fat mutual friend and chat away to her while the girls bugger off to the toilet.Theyre gone for fucking ages like ages half hour i know women fart about but ffs.All the time im getting more in my head and wondering whats going on.
In the end im like im going next pub over to fatty. I walk in the door and a load of backups douche m8s are sat around,im like im just popping in for a sec till sed toilet hiders return,they point at the girls sat round the corner (Phantom and her chav m8 are also not backups m8s biggest fans) well that felt like a fucking dagger stabbed into my side!! Killed any state i had left totally in my head now,it just reminded me of when i was drinking years ago and going to the toilet to come back and everyone had ran away and left me alone,or when i was a kid and id get invited somewhere to play after school and no one would be there.I didnt know whether to lose the plot or what.So im like to the girls whats going on!!! whered u go,they say oh we missed u thort ud gone.Im like its the tiniest pub in town and i didnt move!! in the end i just drop it,i dont wanna look like a reactive chump even tho i was being a reactive chump haha i sit with the girls and back ups m8s join us "groan".Im like what do i do to get Phantom to like me talk in my head whilst telling my brain to shut up argh.A drunk friend comes over dancing to a song and just pulls Phantom up and dances with her im hating him cos i wish i thought of that,so she comes back im like fuck this pull her onto my knee,she sits but as soon as the next chair to us is free which was less than a minute she gets off again ggrr

By this time im thinking im making a complete mess with Phantom,back ups m8s are pissing me off,im sat in a pub a dont want to be in.Ill bugger of to another pub i know is usually way better,hotter girls more options and i can do some openers rebuild state and maybe catch the other lot up in a bit So im like im just going to pub B for bit as my m8s up there,theyre like we will meet u here later so off i go.I bang some music on my mp3 player whilst walking to try to get outa my head or sumat.I get there an its fucking dead im totally gutted anyone who is there is a little emo fag boy with a comb over or a fringe and skin tight jeans:s
As i head out to the beer garden i get pounced on the by this chick ive know about for years but never really got to know probs hb6-7 but going out with a cool guy i know but not close m8s with.So im like where my m8 blah blah is he not out wid u.Shes quite pissed and shes like hes a fucking prick dumped me for no reason 3days ago,obvously still burnt.Now when i look back at this situation i scream,she was flirting with me like fuck,she was obviously looking for a rebound fuck and all i needed to do was make the move.Instead in my retarded state i said uve got lipstick on your teeth "groan" and she buggered of to the bathroom to sort it.I ejected the pub rejoined the other group feeling no better.They decide to go to the grab a granny pub,which for me is always a total dead loss never seen a hot bird in there yet.Phantom has had a a big argument wid on of backups m8s and so walks way ahead of everyone with her chavvy m8.I get to the grab a granny pub look around for Phantom and think fuck this!!! At half 1 i eject with some lame excuse and txt back up and Phantom the same and head home totally dejected.This is the first time since i started out that ive done this,im not proud but i knew if i stuck around whatever attraction i had left with these girls would be killed very quickly and even back ups chode m8s seemed to be more at ease with their dancing monkey routine than i did with myself that night.

Sunday 4th decemeber
I wake gumpily to find a text from Phantom saying "soz im crap and i didnt text u last night to see if ur ok??" I think fuck this ive probs fucked it anyways time to go down like the fucking titanic.I text her "your coming out on date with me this saturday!!" she texts back "ok then Xx",wow i thought i totally fucking blew it with her?? "i txt ill sort details later in the week".Then soon after backup rings me and is like u ok u pissed off pretty quick,i was honest and said you guys fucking of really threw me and explained,she was appologetic and insisted that they had just missed me in there slightly drunken state.

I and a coupla m8s go to a gig at the birmingham nia fucking awsome gig,smashed up knee and bruises all over all in the name of metal well worth it haha.However i noticed a few things
the singer in one band you could tell he knew he was the shit by his face,anything he said the crowd did and he knew it!! wow love that confidence

a lot of the guys in the bands were fucking totally buff and looked amazing,i could tell these guys were getting pussy all over!! Its another reminded for me to get to the gym asap and get some bloody muscles

theres were some amazing birds at that gig i mean stunning everything i would want looks wise.I tried a few openers however out at a gig wid pissed m8s is never good and they kept interupting,being twat etc eventually i ran away from them and managed to open,however within minutes a massive shirtless guy turns up and says "oi u chatting up my burd" i was like "yeh m8 i am but you cant blame me can you shes gorgeous!!" he then cracked a smile at me and i winked and walked off.
I have seen black cat a few times this week including my first journey into cyber sex last night as she was away at her dads,got to say not bad haha.I know this girls a dick and shes a nightmare etc tbh if id met her in May id have been thinking gf material and now im thinking of use and abusing her as much as i want and kicking her out of my flat asap after.Just think as she dont work or have many friends i could txt her now saying "get over here my cock wont suck itself" and she would be here or if she complained id be like if ur not quick about it ill jizz in ur eye 2!! ive never had that kinda power to just do anything i want with a woman before,im reluctant to give that up right now!!
So i texted Phantom im meeting her at 7pm on saturday dno what to do for a date tho:S im pretty broke so wanna keep it cheap but different thinking camping at home haha and be really creative and throw a sheet over my couches as a tent, tie some twigs round my lava lamp as a camp fire etc just for a laugh.

So question

This is my first "date" in years how do i get in state or raise my state before meet a chick?? i dont fancy going in cold again after saturday:S

Thoughts
I think im gona get a p45 from my work for christmas worry my arse of about it constantly,got quite high bills and it seems everytime i plan on making a commitment to training and buying all the protein shakes and gym enrolement theres a bump in the road so that i cant do it its bloody annoying.Now i have to save as best i can incase i get made redundant.
That guy thats been single 10yrs stood me up friday,i shook my head about it.I then spoke to him again today and he insisted he had debt to clear first.In the end think i finally broke through to him.He says he will meet me for a chin wag this week we shall see??
I dont seem to be a very aggressive guy:s I never have been and i want to be a bit more (even with regular mma training).Obviously in a controlled manner but i dont seem to have 2 much plus although im getting laid more than ever i still seem/feel like i have a low sex drive?? maybe i need to see a doctor??
Still i dont feel like im funny enough like a lot of my talk is still 2 generic,i want to be funnier and have the better conversation skills its starting to do my head in now,still struggling with this after quite a few months now:s
I also seem to have the same block as a lot of guys do,i can do fine with birds upto about hb6 i really dont care 2 much etc as soon as they get a bit hotter like wid Phantom boom the brain goes into melt down im more bothered about losing/gaining them and well i bloody fudge it dont i :S

Yo - my two cents:

1) Don't have a "forum night" just go on when you want to - best done at work!

2) Don't beat yourself up cos you came across "needy" on your fb chat with dirty slut. She continued talking for all those hours, she clearly in to you.

3) Man up about lack of sleep!

4) The rocky horror show is awful. Jeez man

5) Who cares if she doesn't like your film? lol

6) "Do anything you tell her to do"..... such as!!??

7) Day game openers, good lad

8) Lovefish. She is 17. She is legal! Fuck her on the downlow. If she tells her bro (which she wouldn't), enjoy the drama, laugh it off and say she wishes Do it!!!!! do ittt!!!

9) Don't worry about the bad night out, sounds to me like you have lame company and it is hard to maintain state when everyone else is a douche, just cos women are good to fuck in bed or threesomes don't mean they have awesome personalities, in my opinion you're trying to maintain your standing with your fuck buddys in public and it just seems to go downhill from there... You need to re establish your grounding, invite them round to yours or something, take control, fuck them both again dude

10) Yes, use and abuse the black cat, and make sure you do cum in her eye

11) As for your "date" just get her round yours, order food, bottle of wine, viagra, fuck her

12) Stop worrying about money. If it happens, it happens. Worrying ain't changing shit! It is pointless effort wasted.

13) Dudes don't really meet up on man dates much. Wouldn't worry about it.

14) Gym will probably increase your sex drive. Don't worr about it though. If your horny your horny. If not, your not. Watch loads of porn and don't jack off. Usually gets me going.

If you are anxious about anything this may make you less horny. Just chill out and relax. No doc needed.

15) Don't try be funny. Just let it come naturally. Watch comedies. Hang out more with people and get involved in banter and never take it personally or be embarrassed about anything you say. Just laugh it off.

16) If you can't "handle" the uber hotties, fuck some mega sexy whores and then re-evaluate your perception of them. They are all people, probably just get approached a bit more by brave guys.

Why did it irk you?

"Hey, wana come round mine and see my pet rats n watch a film?"


As many have told me on this forum about not wanting to think about things:
Don't think about it. Think about something else. Every time you catch it come into your head, forget it and think about something else. Live your life by this: