Been planning on starting a field diary/waffle section of a few weeks now.Mainly to try to keep a well recorded diary of my progress and also get some comments and pointers as i go on fixing problems and mistakes.
I havent bothered till now as where i live was totally dead the past 2 weekends up until this one so i had nothing to report on.This one just gone has been my most successful weekend since i started this whole thing,but also ive learnt a lot,maybe things have sunk in a lil bit more maybe.Before i get started also,big big thanks to all that posted on my thread with a poem on a few weeks back and thanks for telling me straight.It was deffo what i needed to hear ive read those comments everyday since i put it up trying to internalise the comments more.
Ps just as a comment to those that think looks matter when doing this all weekend i did not wash or change my clothes,do my hair,i had about 4hrs sleep and hadnt had a shave for 2 weeks!!
friday 25th Nov
Ive been hanging at this chicks house the past few weeks,shes a good laugh and her flat is a great place to hang and meet new peeps.Id been thinking of using her as a backup shag as she has nice tits and is a pretty good laugh,but i aint been 2 fussed about it ie the weekend before we fell asleep together,but her couch was uncomfy so i did a disapearing act to my place round the corner to sleep in my bed.Anyways shes been txting me ru out 2nyte im like yeh ok then.I head out first to a one pub then the next fairly quiet in town all nyte cant remeber 2 much tbh i had a few unsuccessful openers but that was about it,spent most of it chatting to an old m8 i hadnt seen in ages.Anyways backups m8 has an argument with some guy whos knobbing his ex and storms back 2 her flat followed by her other m8,followed by us.After chilling for a bit,the m8s go crash on backups bed and we chill on the couches pushed together watching a dvd.So i think fuck this and kiss her,shes like wow ive liked u for years you took your time making your move haha.So i end up laying her and falling asleep.Tho as usual i sneak out and do another disapearing act.
saturday 26th november
Total day of craziness emotional rollercoaster ride tbh.I dont go sleep cos i got training and got stuff to do.I figure ill catch some sleep in the afternoon,which never happens as one of my rats die,which totally guts me its always the good ones that go doh
Anyways im like fuck this im not going out 2nyte,but i promised my m8 id come watch his band and theres no way im ever breaking a promise,so im like ill go watch the band then come home.backup txts me shes at her m8s all nyte,i dont answer.I head out to where his bands playing the place is totally rammed with hot chicks to the rafters,rat is swiftly forgotten haha.
I spy my m8s huddling like penguins for protection with their beer shilds up "sigh" i get chatting to one guy and we get to chatting about him being single for 3yrs hes like im happy tho,blatant lie.Im like ur not happy are you!! no i am!! then hes like wow shes hot i turn round and see i know her so im like watch this i turn round and some hot chick (hottest chick in the pub actually) i used to work with and with her my tattooists gf and their fat m8 walk past.I grab hot chick round the waist and pull her in and start kinoing her and chatting away,then after a bit im like go dance while i talk to my m8.Im like did u see that!! its easy and hes like im happy single!!
frustrated i wander off i actually am nick named the "butterfly" cos i seem to just float about venues im in talking to people haha.Anyways i bump into another girl m8 out with the mothers crew 3 milfs mmm one just become single,so i sit down with em and get chatting eventually im like "your all pretty hot milfs" grabbing the single ones hand,"dya recon you could spray milk in my mouth from over your side of the table if u got ur baps out",they all fell about the place pissing themselves laughing.Then some guy sits down aparently hed got a bj of single milf a few weeks b4.Well that completely screwed it for me,im trying to neg this dude but its not working.So im like fuck this and eject after getting her number (shes now wid the fathers dad again now).
I then bump into a girl i was chatting to the week before outside,she has a giant dragon tattoo on her back so im like hey dragon lady and start chatting.After a bit she gets on about how she always makes the fry up in the morning for people after a party,so i was like im having a party at mine after the pub up gona make me! a fry up!!
she just froze up it was wierd eject eject me thinks (turns up shes a lesbian and her gf was sat next 2 her listening to me haha).
I bump into a guy i havent seen in ages,turns out hes been single for 10yrs!!! hes been trying to impress this girl whos cavorting with one of his m8s,he looks crushed it totally takes me back to when i first came on the forum!! I was like u heard of a book called the game?? hes like "no" i was like buy it,read it and call me!! in fact ill meet u for a chat on friday afternoon!!
I did a few other openers with varying degrees of success think i dropped a number but that was about it.Right im like fuck this i want that hot girl from earlier.Shes pretty pissed dancing wid her m8s surrounded by about five 18yr olds total cock fest.Im stood just of the dance floor hanging wid a m8,so im like hey!!! come her!! shes like what?? i point for her to come to me.So she come over to me,i immediately claw her in to me.I start talking to her its a bit rocky tho,im thinking fuck im not getting anywhere.So i last gasp go i thought u were an alternative chick?? she like i am? i go well why are you dressed like a chaver then and laugh in her face,i get the death stare from her,i then carry this spiel on for a bit longer going on about her loving towny lads like them,pointing at the 18yr olds looking on and laughing,then quickly go on to do some rsd Jeffy chode satire "whats your name,whats your number,can i buy you a drink"etc you can tell she knows what im on about.So i go in for the kiss as shes laughing and just as we start kissing fatty aparently in a bad mood cos one of the cock fest guys was a dick to her, drags her away from me ggrr and all three of them promptly go home soon after,none wid blokes.
By this time backup has changed her mind and come out she got a lift from one of her exs and its another of her exs birthdays 2.So shes like hes at some other venue.I was like sure ill come along wid u.Well we get in there and it full of people old enuff to be my parents and backups exs are all over her trying to grope her and shit.Sleeping with her again was on my mind but i realized i was looking like i was hanging round wid my dick in my hand looking like a desperate chump,so i said to her i was off home,she said she would text me later but i didnt say anything.tbh all the way walking home i was telling myself i shouldnt care that i was alone but i did a bit i think if she had been the smoking hot girl i would have felt really burned. So i crash out on my couch.
sunday 27th novemeber
I get woken up 4-5 hrs later by backup ringing me,im like "what dya want" grumpily shes like "i miss u,come over" im like gimme a bit im hungry lemme get some breakfast.i throw some viagra down my neck as i didnt last long the night before and head out.So i get over there shes at the door looking slightly pissed shes like ive been drinking a bit of rum and ive not been to sleep yet.So we start kissing and i drag her into the bedroom and get under the covers,she start giving me a hand job.Suddenly out the blue another chick bursts in the bedroom like a fucking phantom shes like "fucking hell you never said he was that fit" at me.I was like u got that right haha.Anyways phantom explains whilst im still getting a handjob thats some creepy guy i ejected from the flat the week before for being creepy and annoying everyone, was being well creepy and annoying again (backup was 2 nice to tell him to fuck off),txting her shit like i wanna grab your tits etc whilst being in the same room as her.Which is freaking her out,so im like get under the covers.So whilst she gets under i do a wonderful impression of this guy,I said "ooohhh can i grab ur tits" and just grabbed em actually didnt mean to but ah well.
Anyways this guy knocks on the door so phantom hides under the covers and creepy guy opens the door me and backup pretend to be asleep."Hes like have u seen a girl leave the flat??" "im like no i havent shes probs gone like you should be!!" "hes like can i hang in here with you guys??" well im still getting a handjob from back up and i can feel myself starting to lose my temper as this guy seems intent on cock blocking me.I tell him to get out before i make him,he starts giving me shit and thats it i lose the plot not my finest moment but im certain it set of emotions haha plus i knew ive been doing mma for quite a few months and this guys a short 18-19 yr old i know i can handle this guy and theres now way im letting this guy mess up me getting laid not today!! So i fly out of bed in my boxer shorts and basically physically eject this guy face first down the outside steps.I then come back to the bedroom and im like fuck this get inbetween backup and phantom,first i kiss backup deeply then phantom then push their faces together.Boom hell yeh before i know it im on for a threesome
Tho for some reason the viagra is doing fuck all.Its starts of well but i decide i wanna finish up wid phantom as she is a bit fitter than backup,so i take it easy on backup to make sure,maybe she figured that was my plan as towards the end of bussiness when im laying phantom she just lies there when i tell her to sit on phantoms face ggrr.After im done i go to clean up but when i get back into bed i get in next to phantom not thinking about it,phantoms all over me still,but soon i realize backup is getting left out so i move phantom and get in the middle so both can cuddle me.I then take the time to find out phantoms name!! and have a chat wid her turns out she likes folk music so i use a cambridge folk festival plot line about us going together.Plus turns out both girls are best m8s at work and she was out in the same venue as me the nyte before but id some how missed her on went home before she turned up?? anyways she has to go so i give her my phone and say u know what to do!!
Now phantoms gone the viagra finally kicks in nearly and hour and a half later!!Backups still acting funny so i get going on her for absolutely ages that seems to the chill her out.Ive now go to go cos im way behind on stuff ive got 2 do.So i leave backup to sleep it off.
The rest of the day its like the volume has been turned down and it felt like if my flat burned down i could handle the situation with ease whatever happened.If this was a small example of being a natural for the whole afternoon i want it permanent!!! amazing i was totally alpha all afternoon and i now know what it is like to be in state as on saturday i was on amazing form wow.