I've decided to put off my trip to Canada until summer 2015; this gives me chance to rack up some unused work holiday allowances, get cheap flights as soon as they become available (£320 return direct incl. travel to/from airport) and gives me more time to accumulate the money needed to fulfill all I want to do over there which includes Niagara Falls, a few days in America, F1 race weekend in Montreal and visit some natural settings such as Yellowstone National Park.

Without sounding like a boring cunt, living in 1 country for the rest of your life (or the younger part of your life) just doesn't do it for me. It just feels ordinary; it's challenging yet I don't feel it challenges me enough; its ambitious yet staying in 1 country for your entire life just does not appeal to me at all; it's full of awesome people, yet there are awesome people everywhere.
Best way to put it is that I just want to roam. For me, being active is the essential part to being alive. And by active I don't mean just gaming girls or going to the gym; that does it for some people and if that's you then kudos for finding that passion but for me, its surface chipping stuff. My passion is to get out of my comfort zone, see new places, become part of a new culture.

Live the world, not just a country.

My job is expanding daily and so is the company. By this time next year we'll have opened up a new office, I'll be the head of my own team and we'll be branching out to a wider amount of continental clients. If an opportunity came up to start a new office abroad then I would openly take that offer. I don't see my long term future been in the job role I'm in now, most know that I want to become a Physiotherapist. But money is important aswell, people that say otherwise simply do not have the drive that I have. I need money to fulfill what I want to fulfill so I may aswell make use of the situation I'm in until a time comes when I feel I should more on to actively pursue my intended career.


So that is my plan in a nutshell. My intentions and my reasoning.


On the gaming/pick up related topic, I met 3 girls on the train last week (not at the same time) and we chatted flirted etc.. got phone numbers of 2 girls; the other girl invited me to her house (which meant an extra £2 rail ticket from a disgruntled ticket guy) and I ended up staying the night with her. Her personality was that of a quiet person but when she got home, she opened up a whole lot more; she was in her crib so she felt secure I guess.
Anyway, doubt she's not 1 for a public display.

I've been giving this some thought recently.

Whilst you are going through self improvement, have you encountered any external resistance to your change?


I've found that my immediate family have led the crusade of resistance. This has made me reassess whether I'm going backwards or forwards as far as improvement is concerned.

I feel that I have and still am improving but to the detriment of what, family. Maybe it's just a new direction that's needed, it's incredibly hard to say. I feel like I'm making vast progress.

Not much really. When I started going out a lot more it upset the routine in the house. There was some friction between my Dad and me. But after a while things settled into a new routine and it was okay. Now I've moved away and he's on his own. But he seems to be doing okay.

Things I thought were big obstacles turned out not to be a problem.

Weird saturday night.

Went out with a bunch of mates, met another group of girls and we all started chatting. Next thing I know were teaming up boy girl to play doubles darts/pool/air hockey. Awesome!

Some dude came over to chat up the lass I was with and he was being a dick saying he was like the Essex bunch, best face, best looks, etc.. so I thought 'fuck it' and in a random act I began to stroke his face. He was understandably like 'WTF ARE YOU DOING MAN' and I said "im stroking your ego".

Completely random but laughted for ages after that. The guy had no reply and just fucked off. The girl thought it was hilarious and that night, whilst I was going down on her, part of her dirty talk was 'stroke my ego/fuck my ego'.

Taking the piss out of someone through sex; revolutionary.

That brought a tear to my eye.

Don't know if anyone watched David Beckham's 90 minute documentary on the BBC last night, if you haven't then I would recommend watching it. I've been a swell guy and posted the link to it here.

He talked a lot about general ego, self improvement, the fact that his young footballing lifestyle demanded 0 time for friends social life, etc..


The general topics that came up in this program resonated with me a lot. All sports I've been a part of, whether in school, club or district level, I have excelled at. I participated at school, club and district level for Football, Archery and Air Rifle Shooting (the 2 latter sports at club and district).


In less than a year I was the best young talent for Archery and Air Rifle shooting in the North East of England; still have my own bows, arrows and gun. I received a huge amount of peer pressure at school for this, peer pressure for being awesome at sports, I couldn't understand it. After a year of constant peer pressure I quit Archery and Shooting; months before the GB Olympic youth trainers were do to watch the district competition I was in. My club trainers and parents pleaded with me not to quit. That is something I regret immensely.


During that period of time, football was probably the sport that meant the most to me. I was working my way up, training daily. At that point my social life consisted of, friends I used to walk to/from school with and people I trained with. However, I was sure that these people from school I trained with were only using me so that they could practice attacking a cross/freekick/etc.. I wasn't bothered at the time.


I was forced to give up football, told not to play competitive impact sports again because my knee and hip are in such a state that if I continued, I'd need replacements before I hit 45yr old. So I gave up on that too. A few months ago I saw an old friend from school and he said he with the ability I possessed he thought I'd be some big shot footballer by now, so what happened. This filled me with regret, anger and a feeling of utter helplessness for the situation.


When I watch England play on the tv and watch the local teams I have a real urge and desire to just say 'fuck it' and fight my way through again. Quitting the sports I quit and for the reasons I quit them, is the reason I'm here on this forum. That's the foundation and that's the reason why I won't quit or give in before reaching my goals.


I do not want to taste regret again.

Been a while since I've been on here, had shit to do.

Girl I met over here has gone back home to Canada, sucks. Before she went we considered a long distance relationship and I guess were still considering or maybe we just don't want to decide 1 way or the other. She's been home for 4 months ish and has stayed away from any relationship in favour of talking to me and 'keeping available'. She knows I talk to, well anyone to be honest and she's not bothered about that which is cool really, she's as laid back as me.

I'm heading off to Canada for the Formula 1 Grand Prix 2015 and staying in a hotel a stones throw away from the university and on the nightclub strip so literally prime place. The guy who made the bathrooms in each individual guest room in the hotel must have been a pervert because the walls of the bathroom are glass.

She's planning a trip to take me to Niagara Falls aswell so that'd be cool. See how all this works out but I can't imagine anything been concrete until I'm in Canada next year.

She's at that time of the month so she's currently got this bitchy shit about some professor fucking whore who fucks for good grades but was a right tell tail during high school. Anyway, it's quite convenient for me, I can leave her get over herself for the weekend while I watch the end games of the World Cup.

You'll be in Montreal!

People love the British accent here, you should hit me up when your here!

Yeah bud I will. Im going in June next year but actually staying in Toronto because it's way cheaper to fly to. Public transport over there is really cheap so it costs about £20 for Toronto-Montreal round trip!

Formula 1 tickets booked, best grandstand. Can't wait..

Created a Linkedin account as per request from the Director of the company I work for to create 'connections' between business and people working in our sector.

Within 5 days I'd had 3 job offers and a request for a phone chat with some executive of a leading market company in our sector based in London, with offices globally. Seriously recommend it if you figure you want to move on from where you're working atm.


Been in a relationship now for a month and going well, she's pretty emotional and stuff like when we were just talking she joked to say I can take up to 14hr to reply so I took like 8hrs and she fucking flipped out haha.

She got her own back by getting 1 of those chucky dolls and placing it next to me so I woke up during the night to a chucky doll and fucking freaked out because dolls are the creepiest things ever, lobed it straight out the window and the next morning she woke up with permanent marker pen all over her face and has to stay in for 2 days because it wouldn't wash off.

So yeah, like much of before, I'm just interested in self improvement now and increasing my social group/s, though I seem to have girls chasing me more than ever now when they know I'm in a relationship.