Yeh, the temptation is a fucker isn't it.

I don't really become tempted, I'd be like "yeah she's hot" and I guess I just do what I normally do, which is actually less 'game' and more just been genuine and having a cool conversation.

I think last night I was talking about some form of martial arts to a girl and her having mini tits, was like "I know a plastic surgeon" and showed her a pic of my mate with a huge grin holding up a boob implant. After 5 mins some stuff was said I can't remember and she said "I'll kick your grandma in the balls" and then there was something about slitting someone's ass.

Then I told my gf and she pissed herself laughing, mad dash to the toilet and I found out that she can piss really really loud.

It's finished. Feel shit. Need to move on. She wants to meet and stay with me for a week just after my birthday :/ need a night out. Plans?

In a relationship now. She is pretty damn hot, would've been a model if she was a bit taller. We've created rules and have games and things like that. Facebook poking is genus! We do little wagers, some embarrassing and some just funny but we have to provide evidence that it's completed. It's a laugh for sure haha.

This time her wager is to give me a private and public lap dance and a strip tease, she was really fast to deal to that aswell so I probably could have got more but that's the kind of thing we do.

We have this mean/nice thing going on. We're 99% mean 1% nice but the amazing part to this is that when we're nice it's really nice.

We've put benchmarks in place and we both know the deal and everything and because of that, it's helped us to do better in this relationship and we're both enjoying it.

Hey Champ

You still coming to Montreal for the Grand Prix? Saw them putting some chairs out and messing up my bike path

Hey dude, I was in Montreal but only had 2 days there and then onwards to Toronto, Niagara and New York.

I think it was in Laurier metro station some dude approached me asking if I had any change and I said "nope dude" and then when he heard my British accent he was like "how about notes... can I search you" and about 20 turned around with the expression on their faces of like "wtf did he just say" and I just stood there laughing for like 5mins.

Montreal dude hahaa

I'm at a bit of a crossroads right now; I'm not sure if I've gone backwards whilst I'm in my relationship or forwards.

Some days we talk about moving in together and other days it's fights. Then I had some other person say that fights are good too because it shows you aren't afraid of each others emotions.. or something like that.

I'm not sure... I think I might see about figuring a few things out... see if I want a relationship right now or whether the bottom root of it is that I just want to move away to another country.

Girl I've spent over a year with, could've moved in together, talked about more.

It's fucking hard to let go of all that. See great potential and just not persue it. It's like seeing a girl that you love and completely ignoring her. Sucks.

She went on a big rampage basically blaming me for every and all arguments we've had. She decided to say she hates me and has been lying for months, all because we argue too much when it's her that gets pissed off over petty things like me loosing a phone signal for afew mins.


Looking at the relationship I felt dead in it. Undervalued and used but still I loved her and would be 100% committed to the relationship; with a person that hated my guts...

How low and sad it that :/ Fuck.

So like I said previously, the relationship has ended. So it's time to re-boot, get rid of bad habits that I'be become somewhat a custom to and focus on doing things for me.


I'm not sure how I feel, or even if my confidence has taken a beating from the relationship and her breakup spat but whether or not I'd buckle in an approach from an underlying problem that has been caused by the relationship is yet to be seen.


For the first week or so I figured talking online might help some confidence issues (if any) whilst also helping my to move on in terms of her probably trying for a round 2 spat.



Think I'm going to read The Rational Male, get in a good frame of mind and then start doing things for me.

Do I want another relationship right now? Totally undecided. I'm very much at a crossroads of

Yeah that's probably what I want.


Back living with the family makes me anxious about bringing girls back home.

The buzz that I get from been away is amazing, the constant ease in approaching anyone. I want to be able to transfer this to everyday life.

If this means that I have to move away to another country then maybe I should give this very serious consideration.