No he doesn't.

Thanks for the post, It was in a massage parlour the first time I did tell her and she did get it hard after some work but as it was going in lost it a bit and wasn't hard enough. The second time I saw the same girl but she didn't remember at first about my inexperience and she was horny as hell and she was very wet but this time could hardly stand to attention at all and eventually she remembered and her interest waned. No alcohol.

It doesn't sound like the escorts are helping your anxiety, it's overriding everything.
I think you're back to the start of the thread and the first few posts- you'll get opportunities if you are meetings girls and emotionally aware - you may mess some up, some may be crap- everyone has been through it and they'll be your war stories.
In your OP you talked about feeling low- ditch the stigma/shame/guilt they serve no purpose and everyone's path is different.
When it happens, and it will whether it's a month a week or a year from now, you'll think was that all this was about.
Good luck

Buddy do you have any idea of the magnitude of what you are doing?

Most people plod through life and shit just happens to them. You on the other hand, have taken stock and are ripping the weeds out of your head bare handed. Almost nobody does it so the fact that you are working on it is something you should be fucking proud of!

Your problem is that you have forced one foot into the present, but the other foot is still firmly in the past. You don't get to your thirties as a virgin without it taking a toll. From the things you say I can tell that you carry a lot of shame, guilt and fear around with you and your mind is using all the thoughts about inexperience to frighten you out of taking what it perceives as risks. The truth is, which you well know, the bigger risk is not taking those "risks" at all.

You need to work on identifying a given thought or belief that is holding you back, and finding ways to realise that they are not really risks at all.

For example, the belief that your inexperience will lead to judgement, shame…etc. Look around you, women are always moaning about the dick head men they have to endure! You don't have to be perfect, you just have to be ok with not being perfect.

It's about unravelling that shit so you can just relax and enjoy being horny so nature takes it's course. At the moment you are so focused on sex as this thing you must accomplish to fix yourself, that you can't just let your sex drive take over.

Anyway I've rambled on too much, hope this helps and keep up the good work!

Kowalski I really hope you remember this you egotistcal cunt. Really fucking hope you remember your comments. The fact is a hot chubby girl took me to her home and wanted me to I massaged her and fingered her whilst watching a denzel washington movie in her flat and made her orgasm multiple times as she bited my neck and ear, I just didn't want to lose it to her. Im a goodlooking confident well dressed guy not struggling financially either and I look like a 25 year old. Maybe a bit too picky, but I got game. I'm also appearing on a bbc3 documentary where we receive training from englands best master pua, Beckster. And we get interviewed by tyger drew honey from outnumbered. It going to air this summer as part of the tyger takes on series. Beckster is imho the best he hangs with mystery tyler and ross jeffries. Ive seen him do amazing stuff and he gets me to approach 2 american girls in covent gardens in the daytime and close one of them. Hope they air this. It will fucking shut up every chode here who is fucking average chavvy girls out of desparation then telling everyone that he's a boss. The fact is my advice to the 35 year old virgin is spot fucking on. All you guys saying to losing it to an escort are demonstrating a weak mans mindset. I challenge you all to take the piss out of me now, at the same time I want you all to remember who you took the piss out of. Kowalski take the piss out of me you little faggit its also a weakmans way of ccoming into terms with personal insecurities.

Exactly, escorts arnt helping . Postscript you must be a boss jusging by your advice, everyone else is just a wanna be player demonstrating a weak mans mindset.

Exactly kowalski exactly that bro I'm confident with my virginity and with who I am that I admit to it on national tv. Who the fuck can do that ? But it took me 3 years to get here. Lot of girls want to take my V plates I'm just choosing and taking my time. Ill be first to admit I'm picky.

Lol at the fact that you think any of this is worth bragging about

I was going to be on that tv show with another "MPUA Guru", glad I didn't now. This will be fucking entertaining, it'll be like watching magic...pun intended