I was feeling more confident and creative than usual with my openers last night. Two attractive girls were at a table being hit on by a few guys. They were both fit. One had lovely tied back blonde hair and a peaches and cream complexion... a natural beauty. The other had a lithe body and long flowing fair hair.

I noticed when the lithe one laughed she had an extraordinarily large mouth. It only looked big when she laughed. So I went up and said to her friend something like: "I went through the channel tunnel the other day. Your friend's mouth reminds of that".

She laughed and demanded I buy them a drink to apologise. I then said "I can't afford a drink big enough". "But you're welcome to get me one" She liked this but I didn't stick in there and bailed.

Later on as they were both leaving (unaccompanied) the friend gave me good eye contact and a big smile as she walked past. I expect her friend must have told her what I said.

I seemed to be getting eye contact and smiles from loads of women last night. I should have done much more approaching than I did.

I had a go at one of my mates last night. Not sure where that came from. I've also had random outbursts at my dad recently. It's part of the reason I'm moving out of the house.

This recent behaviour reminds me of the Neil Strauss poem, when he says:

"A scoreless night fosters hostility, a scoreless weekend breeds animosity. Through red eyes all the world is seen. Angry at friends and family for no reason that they can perceive."

Saturday 22 Feb

Out local again.

This is typical. Because I'm leaving soon, there seems to be attractive women about everywhere here now and they are shooting for me.

Didn't cold approach once tonight but women appeared, we chatted. It was really good. I was in a packed bar with a great band playing. That always gets me going.

The girl I mentioned a few posts ago, the really film star beautiful one even came up to me. We were holding hands before. God this girl is so perfect. When I see her my stomach does backflips and I get butterflies. She's only 20 yo for gawds sake.

I'm still wary of being too keen and scaring hot women off. I should just be going for it now. I basically know what to do. I think this girl is so hot I should be nailing that.

I can't really understand at the moment what it is in myself that is stopping me going for it with her. There's the work that still needs to be done. I'm smelling blood in the water and not taking action. This is what is pissing me off. And I'm taking out my pissed offness on innocent parties, whoever happens to be around. It's not the way I want it to be.

With other girls I had two clear chances and several good interactions but didn't really take it on fully as I should and can.

there was a little blonde girl I felt was made for me. But this really tall guy was in there already. I got talking to Mss Blondie's mate and we got on like a house on fire.

I ended up holding hands and kissing with her. I initiated that. She was enjoying it and so was I. It felt like a huge leap forward for me. From cold approach to physical escalation. It was great. I'm a learner remember.

I patched things up with my mate. The outburst I had last night upset him and did some damage. I did my best to smooth things over between us. I think we are okay now.

I think I make up for being a dick 1% by being such a good friend 99% of the time.

He understood that I'm a very frustrated man.

I keep saying to myself wake your fucking self up man. All the possibilities are there.

Err so what happened next?

It's good that you think women want to fuck you, the next step is ACTING like they want to fuck you. Being a bit of an asshole (i.e. busting on a girl about the size of her mouth), but in a jokey way, is one way to go about it.

I feel your frustration, but at some point you will need to step it up otherwise it becomes a negative spiral. However there is signs of progress!

My opener to the first woman was a response to her question "that guy who's with you and he's talking to my friend, he's okay isn't he, I mean he's not going to strangle her or anything?". I responded "yeah she'll be fine, we've got a van waiting outside". She laughed and we were up and running then.

As the bar was emptying out we were standing holding hands and there was some light kissing. I pulled her in. My mates had ordered a taxi and were signalling to me over her shoulder that they were off. So I said bye to her and left.

She had told me she had two kids but I didn't know / ask if she was married or with anyone. I assumed she wasn't as we were kissing. I couldn't take her back to mine and she has kids at home so I assumed nothing more was going to happen that night.

She told me she was from a nearby village but I didn't find out what her situation was or get any way to contact her again. I'm guessing this is partly because I'm enjoying the moment and don't want to spoil it. And just lack of experience generally in closing. But you're right I need to start doing that part.


We went to a bar after that and the young hottie that I've spoken to before approached me. I should have been pulling her in but for some reason I didn't do it. I think by that point my head was spinning and the booze was kicking in.

There was two main chances I had last night to do some kind of closing but didn't do it. But I seem to be coasting through the initial stages and I can feel it's within my grasp.

So, yes, it's definitely progress. Just need to do the last mile.

Not wanting to analyse too much but I'd like to note where I went wrong on Saturday.

I would say it was on between me and the woman who I ended up talking with for 1/2 hour. Initially she asked if I was looking for a wife. I said "only for tonight". So she knew what I was after from the start.

Looking back on it I think she actually initiated the physical contact when she saw I was about to leave. I suppose I should have found out her situation / logistics during our convo. She was with two other women, one of which had pulled a guy who I know and it looked likely they two were going home together.

It's possible the one I was with was expecting me to go home with her. I should probably have assumed that until she told me otherwise. It's the closest I've come anyway to not having another scoreless weekend.

I'll just have to be more 'leading' once I can tell they're interested. Try for the pull and if it's not on get the number.

Sounds like Neil Strauss is talking a load of bollocks IMO.

Who knows Neil Strauss poems.

He's only ever written one, in 11th grade, it's in 'The Game'. I think it's good.

I've got a date with the tinder girl next week.

Kind of ironic as I'm moving away next weekend. But I need the experience. I've not been on a date in years.