Yhhhhh boiiiii

So I shouldn't have but it slipped out, I mentioned to my dad I had a date next week and he started giving me advice, without me asking for any, about what I should do. he is getting nervous about my date.

He said I should turn up early and seem as if I am really enthusiastic to meet this girl. He said I should be animatedly interested when she is talking and tell her I've got my own house.

I said to my dad, "can I say something here dad...shut the fuck up and don't ever talk to me about women ever again" (he's not qualified)

Thankfully he shut up after that. Bless him.

I will be enthusiastic but in the right way. I've already chatted to the girl for 3 hours. I know she's curious about me and me about her. I know better what I'm doing now. I'm used to chatting girls, not just in a friendly way. I'll give her a thrill.

My aim is by the second date she'll be wanting me to tear her clothes off. Unless she is frigid or we are totally incompatible, I don't see any reason why that can't happen. If it's looking like a go on the first date I'll be ready for that. I've ended up in bed with girls on the first date before. Long time ago though.

Why delay the inevitable, another moto of mine.

If you can bed her in four weeks, you could have bedded her the first night, you just weren't aggressive enough. Too scared of rejection. Get over it.

I've got the extra incentive of maybe never seeing her again as I'm moving away. And she knows that too.

But I'm taking nothing for granted, you cant.

Friday 28 Feb

Second last night out local.

A shed load of excuses for not approaching tonight came up, aw I'm leaving soon and all that. It doesn't matter, there were chances to approach and I didn't do it. Did chat to some chicks, but no cold approaches.

I wanted to sit down and next to where I was standing there were 6 girls around a table and 1 spare seat. I was gonna go up and try to grab the spare seat but I knew I would be challenged. The inevitable challenge would have been a good opportunity to get chatting to and tease those girls but I just bottled it basically. I feel so shit when I get a god idea now then don't follow through on it. It wasn't really AA just apathy.

I just wanted to talk to my mates as I'm leaving soon. It was one of their birthdays tomorrow. He was born in a leap year so he's only 13 really, we had a laugh about that. He dates younger women. I ended up talking to him about women for ages.

It's like now I want to turn every conversation around to the topic of women and getting them. It's not everyone's cup of tea. Once I get one I might calm down a bit. At the moment I just see every woman apart from my sister and aunt as potential fuck target, when I'm horny. But it's only natural.

Wasn't in the mood for chatting girls but went out to the smoking area and after my mate left I got chatting to this auburn girl about me moving away. She was sexy looking and seemed like lovely girl.

She gave me a big hug and kiss and kind of allayed all my fears about moving to London. I liked her. That's what makes me love women. She didn't even know me but we made a small connection in a few minutes. And then everything seemed worth it.


Her boy 'friend' was hovering. He seemed so insecure and jealous, it's pathetic really, just make sure you're never like him. He deliberately ignored me, he saw me as a threat.

Anyway felt pretty knackered later on and went home at the end of the night. I wanted to dance and rock on but it wasn't on tonight.

Saturday 1 March

Was tired, hungover and felt like staying in for a wank but forced myself out tonight. It's better to at least try to get a real woman.

There was a 70's / 80's disco on and went to that. It was my mate's Birthday and he was physically pushing me to approach girls but I wasn't feeling it at first. I wasn't in a bad mood but just didn't feel like it was happening. The disco was really loud and the music gradually got me in state. I could see the women getting in state too. I had a look around and a lot of girls were with blokes and there were rings everywhere.

I was outside having a ciggy and four girls got out of a taxi. I said hi to the first one and she didn't respond so I shouted at the top of my voice "ALRIGHT GIRLS!" and then one of them came over to talk to me. I thought it might have scared them but I'm realising you have to be LOUD to attract girls.

I had a good convo with her, she was tall blonde and good looking, but after we headed inside she headed straight for a guy who was waiting at the bar. She seemed to stick to him the rest of the night. You can't always win.

At least I can dance.

I truly believe it's their loss now if they don't stick with me. I am getting much better at setting and holding the frame with girls, even if they're really attractive. This is helping my confidence a lot.

I gave complements to women on their looks, it doesn't work well to get their interest unless they aren't very attractive. I told a plain girl with glasses she was a great dancer (she was) and she said thanks and put her cheek up to me to kiss it, which I did. She smelled sweet actually.

I told another girl she had a beautiful face, she said thanks but there was no feeling behind her acknowledgement. I would have fucked the plain girl and tbh she would have been more up for it than the beauty girl.

I took another girls arm, she had a red dress on with lace arms, and said "are you the one from Glasgow?". She said no and I tried to chat her but she was very drunk. I said "you look lost, where are you going?". She didn't even answer and just walked away. She was quite hot though and beautifully dressed. I tried approaching her a few times tonight but to no avail. She was making eye contact that's why I kept trying but she was just too pissed unfortunately.

After a while I got into it and did quite a lot of approaching. It wasn't too bad but I'm still being far too pussy about taking a woman that I like. I could sense some of them liked me but I didn't force the issue. Then they moved onto other guys. That's hurting me.

I'm doing the preliminaries well now but I need to start being much more forward and pulling the trigger. That's all that's missing in my game ATM.

It is so frustrating when you're talking to a girl and all you're thinking about is putting your finger in her cunt and giving her a great time, then she just walks away from you.

Such is life. One day soon some lucky girl isn't going to walk away and all her birthdays are going to come at once.

I felt good that I just got out of the house and talked to girls.

To work on

Being more aggressive and forward with girls. They don't go for pussies. You might creep them out but it's better than being dismissed and going home alone.

Last night I was speaking to the guy who I winged last Saturday night. He seemed to be getting on well with a girl. I assumed he took her home but he said he got blown out at the end of the night...LJBF and all that.

Though he said he did get her number and had been texting each other during the week. I told him I had been making out with his girl's friend but forgot to get her number.

He's going to text the girl he knows to get her friends number for me. He offered to do that. He's a good guy.

Got the keys for my flat in London today and dropped my gear off. I had to take the car back so won't be staying the night. I'll be getting the train in tomorrow to move in proper and get organised. Driving in London traffic is quite an experience.

When I was unloading my stuff I introduced myself to one of my neighbours, an American chick. She was really nice. So I met my first new person since moving to London, only 5,999,999 to go.

Nice one you're gunna love city life. I wish Belfast had half the population London has.

Dan, I'm so fucking excited man. My biggest fear is that I just don't take advantage of this opportunity.

I feel motivated. If anything the move to London is gonna ramp that up a few notches.

All I'm interested in is being the person I wanted to be.

Saturday 8 March

Last night out local before I go away. I had some wine with dinner before I went out, so was really relaxed and in a fun mood.

Ended up shit-faced by the end of the night.

There was a lot of hot women around. I wasn't intending to approach but my mates kept going on about these three girls at a table near us and urging me to approach, so eventually I did.

The three of them were braw. I went over and introduced myself and high fived them. The dark haired one seemed the most into it so I put my arm around her. She was okay with this.

My memory get's a bit hazy here. I remember looking up the odd time and seeing my mates sort of egging me on from the bar. I was holding her hand. I think I kissed her on the cheek, not sure. It felt comfortable anyway.

When I woke this morning my phone indicated that I had sent 111 text messages to an unknown number. WTF?

Anyway, I'm not taking my computer to my new place, all I'll have is my mobile phone, so reports from now on will be pretty short and to the point (I hear a hoorah! from some of you :-) )

But I need less talk and more action anyway.

Serendipity signing out from this location.