I'm learning things I should have learned 20 years ago.

But I was too screwed up then.

This man, this. Sooner or later you are going to have to take the plunge

Sunday 13 April

Went in a coffee shop today that I was in last week and chatted to the barrista. As soon as she saw me she remembered what I had ordered last week and seemed excited. She then made one for herself and went outside for her smoke break.

I thought it might be a green light so followed her out. I sat at her table and chatted to her. I heard "when do you finish?" coming out of my mouth but she didn't answer and started talking about her boyfriend.

A girl who was sitting on her own at a nearby table got up and left and I remember thinking "shit, I should have sat next to her instead".

I walked about in the sun but I can't get eye contact with all those sun glasses. The only way would be to stop them and get them to take them off.

Gut wrencher today coming home from work on the bus.

Brazilian looking hottie gets on and sits next to me. Shes texting. Then stops...waiting for a reply I guess. I catch her eyes in the reflection in the glass in front. There's some eye contact. I get a semi.

I want to turn to her and smile but I feel I look like like shit as I've got a chest infection. So I do nothing.

aa sets in and I imagine her tutting and moving to another seat if I try to hit on her. She gets off the stop before mine. When I'm unwell it affects my whole brain.

looks like I'll be stuck indoors the bank holiday weekend, alone, no tv. While debauchery goes on unabated outside my door for 4 nights.

I'm a barrel of laughs.

I love chatting up girls on the bus sometimes.

Other times it's like you say, gut wrenching. I've been sat right beside chicks & imagining the perfect conversation playing out in my head, yet I am sat right beside her, imagining it

I usually ask them if they know how long it takes to get to our destination (They know you already know) & then go from there "so have you any plans tonight/weekend/christmas/easter?"

Once you get started there may as well be nobody else on the bus even if its jam packed.

I actually love packed buses because then you get to hand pick the hottest girl there & ask if she minds do you sit down, which gives you brownie points in itself for being polite because just now that i mention it i don't recall ever seeing anybody ask someone if they can sit down, usually people just plant their ass on the seat because well, it's a bus they're "allowed" to. But if you ask you not only show you're a gentleman or whatever blah blah, but you have effectively broken the ice too.

Try it out.

Same with me. We had a great convo, she played with her hair the whole time. I got her number. We're meeting over the holiday. All that in my head of course.

I'll try that. Not done bus game at all before.

I've decided that as im 'Hors de combat' over the holiday I'm going to take the opportunity to do a few hundred tinder swipes & POF messages. Its action of a sort.

You got internet?

You should download the daygame blueprint. I'd like to start watching it again right now but my head is currently being melted with fucking psychology stuff.

Ive got flaky mobile internet. In pub at the moment . I'll have a look for the dg blueprint. I got a green light gonna check it out.