Try thinking of Gordon Brown or the answers to that post about roots and powers and stuff
http://www.puaforum.co.uk/off-topic/...ou-clever.html

Ha!!

I'm not hiding the fact that it offended me, because frankly, I thought you were being serious. But, now I know you were joking..i'm fine with that.

Many people here are trying to find that Balance. Work hard enough, we'll get there. I don't find Social Dynamics a walk in the park, like some people here do. But I'm damn determined to get this fixed and have fun doing it.

Monday 30th November: Opus

Starting these reports again. Been out of it for a few weeks because of finances, but i'm back on track now. I feel rusty but if I think rusty I will be! Anyway, a few worthy interactions:
1) Out in the smoking area, a group of two fatties and 1 HB. I started talking to them. All three were into me. I wanted to snog the HB but felt consious of the fattys there who would get jealous. I should have just done it, because I found the HB snogging someone else later in the night!
2) Spotted a girl I quite fancied, so sat down next to her and opened her. Nice interaction, lots of kino, so I wanted to take action. I led her to the bar where I got myself a water. Danced with her a bit. Her friend was lagging behind us. Made friends with the friend then just went for the Kiss on the HB. She wasn't receceptive. Tried again, again no. Tried a third time. No, then she went back to talk to her friend. I didn't like standing around like a lemon, so I scarpered off.

I did a fair few approaches throughout the night.

I'm going to try and reduce my alcohol level. I want to practice approaching in different states.

These next few weeks I'm going to approach like a motherfucker. I want to get to where I was freshers week (a few weeks ago). I would say, despite that K-close rejection, I find it a lot easier to kiss close now then I have ever done. The rest I think for me is just logistics

Weds 2nd Dec: Birdcage

So I'm trying to get back to the same level I was a few weeks back. I decided that "state" is a signpost. Yes, you do things to help you get into state, but you MUST approach whether you're in state or not.

I delibrately wanted NOT to get into state before I approached (I didn't care..) , I had only one pint and had a little bit if Vodka. Was about to Sarge practically sober!

So, I decided, Fuck the fact I haven't been out for long..after all I went out Fri, Sat and Monday..so I should be fine! My goal was simply to approach like a bastard SOBER!

I started to approach. The momentum started to build and build and build. In the end I cared little for the outcome and kept approaching! I ended up kiss closing twice, sober!! I was so pumped up I felt like I was on drugs! No one night stand because of logistics, but I think I still need to show slightly more intent.

In all, not bad for a sober night. You may say drugs are bad, but the mephedrone taught me alot about myself and what I'm capable of. I think this has definately helped my sober game. Hopefully this will lead the way to day game.

I had a chat with Shiraz, one of the PUAs out there. He agrees that the reason why I'm K-closing more is that I am getting better at reading the signs and obviously, I know what to do from there so it's a case of practice as much a possible

Drugs in general aren't bad...but this is one of the worse ones (excluding all the mental ones like heroin). I've had it a couple of times and it's fucking dirty - the only reason it's legal is that it hasn't been classified yet. In other words they have no idea what it does, despite its pharmacological similarity to MD. I'd say to stick to pills in future - I know I will be.

Anyway, on to this business of women. Sapmi, you sound like one cool cat. Hustler's mentioned you a few times in the course of our conversations and I'm looking forward to meeting you next week (if you're about). Stuff like the last report gives me a little boost, because I think of your level of success as where I'll be a couple more months down the line.

Lol Blanca:
You're getting me on to it now. Yeh, Mephedrone is bad for you. It can cause damage to your heart valves. Some people turn as blue a smurfs on it!

I think it's like acid in a way (not the effects!) in terms you take it once or twice for self exploration. People can't afford to take it every day or everytime you go out sarging (afford in terms of what it will do to your body..i.e you will die!) It's like, I'm going to hire Tyler Durden to be my wingman everyday...no fucker here can afford that!!

So I say take the shit maybe to boost people ahead by a couple of months, but don't rely on it!! Do it once a month at most, or ideally once every six months. Could be seen as a cheap way of doing an RSD bootcamp. You need to already have had some success for this stuff to work though.

Seriously??

I have to be honest the only drugs I've ever had are a bit of the old green. I used to be a saint in my prevous life.

I might give MD a try to see what the fuss is about...

Some good points Kowalski, however I stand by some of my statements.

The thing that worries me about it is that it is a drug designed in a laboratory, and then sold on the internet with a big sticker saying "not fit for human consumption". Last time I checked, most illegal drugs are perfectly suited for human consumption. Cocaine is given to cancer patients. Heroin is given to people suffering a heart attack. Ket is a basic and (until quite recently) very frequently used anaesthetic. MD is (although not officially) a wonderful antidepressant. The feeling I get when I take it is akin to when I'm at my most manic, which is the best place to be in the world.

My worry is the molecule itself. MDMA is a sertonin receptor agonist (amongst others). This means it activates serotoninergic pathways in the brain which in turn upregulate production of noradrenaline (a cousin of adrenaline). Obviously, this gives you the buzz and endless energy, whilst stimulation of sertoninergic pathways gives you the wonderful high and feeling of loving everything. MD has a high affinity for these receptors in the brain and we know (due to the fact that it's been classified and scientifically documented) has few other effects.

Meph is essentially a modified version of the MD molecule. I think they put an extra =O double bond on one of the meth molecules. Is this fine? Who knows? It's probably fine, but there comes a point when the molecule has been altered with so much that it has undesired effects.

Also consider this. It's fair to say that you need to take a fair amount more meph than MD in order to get a buzz. This tells me one thing - lower affinity for the serotonin receptor. On its own this is ok, but supposing this simple change in molecule is giving it a higher affinity for other receptors? Is it antagonising other receptors? Is it acting at other sites on completely unrelated neurones and causing damage?

These are the reasons I describe it as "dirty". I'm almost certainly wrong, and when it gets reviewed they'll probably find that it's as safe as MD. But until then, as far as I know, it's a plant food that is also the de-crystallised form of crystal meth.

As for drugs in general though K, couldn't agree with you more. They've given me some truly eye-opening experiences and whilst I wouldn't make a habit out of them, I'm glad that I've taken the plunge in the past and allowed myself to experiment. I'm not going to claim I've done some of the crazy shit you've done, far from it, but I've had good times from drugs.

Especially from ket. Whilst listening to Pink Floyd. Especially especially when my Goodfellas poster was still on the back of my door upside down. God almighty, some of the wierd shit I saw those times...

Yeh more of an update soon....but I'm experimenting with state..i.e disregarding it's importance....Made some interesting progress on Monday...will update when possible