After last night I have come to a decision to not drink as heavy during my nights. I have a cyclical thing where I'll have a night out where I get too drunk and remember to go easy on it.

Really going to try my best.

I got way too drunk, I remember throwing up in the toilet, not being allowed back in and my friend saying he walked passed me passed out in front of the club. . .

At some point I got speaking to a spanish barmaid, tonight I'll close her when I see her out as I will be sobererer.

Also a girl from Monday night who I spoke to but thought I got flat out denied smiled and said "Hi" to me last night. If I wasn't as trashed I would have done something.

Dice would have been envious of my drunkenness. Working until 1:30am tonight so I'll be sober when I go out. It'll be interesting. My goal for tonight is to speak to three girls I like whether I've spoken to them before or not, and go for the close. And to speak to girls in general during the night obvs.

Promo'ing will be fun and a good way to speaking to girls in the day.

Found out last night for my promo'ing job I had to wear a giant TV helmet which was massive for 4hours! It was a funny job, even though its hard to chat and do the promo'ing with it on.

After that my next job was to wear a giant neon suit and dance on a podium for two sets of fifteen minutes. Insane amounts of girls loved it, I genuinely thought about buying one just to pull girls hahah! Like getting pulled left, right and centre for photos and chats. I can see where peacocking sprouted from.

By the time I finished work I was still hungover from Friday, sober and sweated out from the two suits I had to wear but still turned up to a bar for a chat.

Blanked some time waster I met a month or so ago. Then got speaking to a really cool girl I met on Monday but thought she had a boyfriend but I found out today that they're not actually together!

Fuck, next time I am on it! Smoking hot. Then had some insane 30second long eye contact with a girl I always see out but never saw me, but i didn't do anything about it. Dammit.

Also getting into Positive Journaling. Each night I sum up my day and then write out at least five positive things about my day if not more. I like it as it makes you realise that you've done a lot more than you think OR you find something positive out of something you never thought you would find.

Haha nice try son, you can't top a seasoned professional like myself! Call me when you manage to drink 10 pints, a bottle of gin, and a bottle of whiskey. Man last night I was trashed.

Sorry, I mean diced.

Hahaha I can't compete with how much you drink but what about how much of a mess you are and what you do?

I can definitely compete with that.

Going to go very easy on the alcohol and focus on getting my game tight yall. I've noticed its isolation that I need to focus on, socialise, isolate, escalate. Simple.

This is a semi-field report, semi-ramble and vent about some thoughts I have about it. Long post.

Last night, Monday, going to try a different angle with writing it.

I think I'm going through some change or something vague I can't describe or understand yet. I've noticed that now I have a completely different criteria for success, like last night, I think, was actually tonnes better (in terms of talking to girls) than any previous thing I can think of.

Actually when i was eighteen i could occasionally be quite good when i was super drunk around tourists on the beach at night.

Im in a schism.

I'm quite unhappy with the how much Im going for it right now and Im not sure if its a good thing or not.

Anyway, last night i didn't really approach but mainly spoke to girls in my social circle and flirted and chatted with them. It was okay I didn't go for the pull with any of them which annoyed me. Really pissed myself off about that as thats my focus and what i should always be doing. Doubt, lack of motivation and forgetfulness(Read: drunk). Going to abstain from jerking it to get some aggression.

I also feel like two to three days a week isn't enough time to meet girls. I need it to be daily. But yeah about last night, it made me realise I've had a stupid mindset. Since its a small town where I know a lot of people or see same faces out each week, i've become attached to wanting to approach specific girls which is the first, most outcome dependant mindset I could have.

Going to drop it, not "Speak to xyz girl" and try "i will speak to girls I like the look of".

And I've been attached to people's comments too much, its like whilst doing this and getting compliments like "Dude your well good in the club", so I'd feel all good and reinforce that I'm good at this. And this goes for things in general. Like getting people's approval and reactions to tell me I'm a good person or whatever.

Like I've built my house on the quick sand foundations. They can change at any time. Its funny because it came from a compliment that someone gave me about how I had a really great energy and presence when doing the Promo'ing compared to other people in the club.

At first I was chuffed and i thought to myself "Ah see I am good!", I woke up today and came to some realisation that that's not the way to go about it. If we were to relate it to Pick-up and girls, it'd be like waiting for a girls approval to permission to go for it, the close, the pull, the kill, the chase, which will never happen, or at least not often. I know this from experience.

The main issue is I don't really know how to go about changing or tackling this, I already am very action/process orientated in what I see as success in a night out. This could be why I don't feel much achievement recently as I don't have someone to push me and really go for it down here.

I actually can't articulate it right now.

Working on being present and positive each day too. More I do this shit the more I understand how important those two are.

If I was to articulate it, the best I can do is there's some duality in me between taking action etc and reactions, comments, results affecting me. And I'm not sure whether the latter gets to me when I'm not taking enough action or what.

To sum up: I will go out and go for it with girls, I need to be more 'on', aggressive, put it on her etc, more 'genuine' as in going for the pull not just talking to them, making it happen, the logistics, the leading, the rollercoaster ride.

Being present and positive

Action orientated completely not how she will respond. Not worried about what friends etc will think, being embarrassed etc

That I have improved and will continue to if I keep out. Make it daily meeting new girls.

#Close.................Do it. I forget, after my brief stint of number closing every girl. I think its because I speak to less new girls (cold approach) so I dont do it around social circle, just flirting, which links back to not going for the pull.

In fact all this rambling has helped me realise that. Its because of me sticking to social circle, which isn't inherently bad BUT I feel like "is she talking to me because socialising or because she likes me?", "Ahh i dont wanna ruin anything with friends who know her and me or make anything awkward".

blah blah blah blah

Abstain from wanking, this genuinely does seem to help. Be an approacher and closer. Bro.

Theres another topic I have, pretty important but I'll save that for another day after a few more field reports.

I don't think I've explained it properly. I've been trying to etch out what I mean on paper too.

Loving all the field reports and cool posts from everybody. Hasn't been like this in ages, other than the flame wars we've had :P

Went out last night for promoting and instead of giving me the giant TV head I got to wear a giant LEd light suit similar to this: https://www.google.co.uk/search?q=LE...2F%3B537%3B320

Anyway it was great, loads of fun, learnt a few lessons on value, fun and novelty. Like all the promoters for other clubs even wanted photos with me, giving me props (although technically we're not supposed to talk to each other we all do) and I had smoking hot girls just talking to me, smiling etc etc simply because I was in this 'value giving' suit.

I was also having fun in it doing the robot, moonwalking, dancing like a tit and generally walking up to all the punters and chatting to them.

I think that's similar to pick-up, have fun and be a bit of a novelty, different to everything else around then take them to your place (club).

I think macking the people in town is less realistic than speaking to the other club promoter girls and going for it with them instead.

Going to go into Cornwall's only city for some day game next week when I have money for the bus.

Let's be honest it's not really a city is it...

It has a cathedral :P

And 20,000 population. . . haha