Met up with Dice and XFC in Kro, had a chat for an hour or so, I was feeling dead. I didn't even want to leave my house let alone a big night out.
Went Fifth still feeling rough as but as soon as we got inside suddenly I came alive, I could self-amuse myself all night.
I had no intentions of approaching which although I could and maybe should have done way more approaching I had this strange feeling before going out of thinking that this was my first night out in Manchester and how difficult approaching would be compared to Newquay, where I didn't really do any approaching.
I used to just speak to girls around me.
Got speaking to some crazy blonde girl and my opener was that rape joke I posted on here, she was pretending to not take it too well, so i told her; I drink drive and its not my fault as my parents are divorced, that she wasn't funny and various other nonsense.
She tells me she's got a boyfriend, so I ask her "Why are we speaking then?", she replies "Im a tease
" , I went "No. Why am I speaking to you. Bye."
I thought that was pretty funny for some dick tease. Funnily enough I wasn't flirting I was just making myself laugh.
Chris wants to get approaching instead of the planned "Night out and see what happens", he does a few, I go into a group of 6 cute girls and then quickly take their photo as I noticed all the attention was going towards that and didn't wanna be standing there like a Sapmi. So I start busting on them all "You're supposed to smile in photos btw", "Act like your having fun in the photo guys, you know, like you're in a club with your friends partying". Ha-ha I'm a funny man. Get speaking to one of them, being a bit weird, so I left, a month back I'd try and hang on but now I don't want to waste my time, I could be dancing, drinking and chatting shit.
A mistake made by me was on the dancefloor, I gave some girl the eye and she looked back but I hesitated and left it until I saw a guy come over and get with her pretty quickly. I was annoyed at myself for not going over, I always doubt myself when girls are giving ME 'ioi's and approach invitations which is a bit weird. I ALWAYS DO THIS. And what makes it worse is that they're usually girls that get my attention and are fully my type. And if that chump could have gotten with her, I fucking can!
Its funny walking around 5th and noticing all the puas. I could tell these two guys were puas and they were talking to the annoying blonde girl from earlier, so I gave her the 'call me' hand sign with the guys like "Huh how lame" then I continued to do it exaggerating it and then I was on the floor mouthing insanely "PLEAAAAASSSSEE WHHYYYYY CALLL MEEE", she's pissing herself and this guy is trying to get her attention whilst failing. gesture her over and say "Ask him how Mystery is. Bye.".
After that I just chilled.
A big lesson I learnt is that I don't really have AA as such anymore. I get a feeling that stops me but I realised its NOT AA, and I couldn't quite place it. Its even the same feeling I get whilst sober, alone during the day, and see girls. I always thought "Oh it must be anxiety", and believe me it used to be!!!!!
The best way to describe it is the same feeling as when you're lying in bed about to go sleep and the light is still on. Its fucking annoying but you're not anxious about it, its just a lot of effort and uncomfortable from your comfy bed. This is me and approaching. I just need to get out of bed.
Also I don't believe in rejection either, I believe you should focus and learn from success not mistakes and failures, proper nights out > sarge nights out and that less is more.
But those are articles Im writing up as we speak.
Tonight I will get Dice and Chris to push me to speak to every girl under the sun. Peace and love niggas.
EDIT: Sapmi was out all night by himself. Wamp.