Mark,
I'm only here because I heard about this thread you had started. To me this all sounds quite sinister, I completely disagree with this passive aggressive approach that you feel will earn you results. Paranoid schizophrenia is not an attractive quality.
I think you should take a massive step-back from
PUA for a while and concentrate on more stable and ultimately more fulfilling tasks and duties. It feels a shame to me that you invest far too heavily on
PUA as a means of gaining fulfillment in your life. Granted, you listed many items earlier in this thread of things that give you fulfilment in your life, whilst I believe the sincerity of some of those you listed, I think others when more closely examined by yourself are hollow words.
There are far more important things in your life that require more investment than getting your end off with randoms, cheap instant thrills and going clubbing with people half your age.
Your daughter is important to you, enjoy and savor the moments with her, nurture her and encourage her and take fulfillment from that which you teach and inspire her. You're a smart guy so invest more time in developing a successful career that you ultimately enjoy and find rewarding. Reduce your drug use, rely on it less to make you feel positive emotions do not use it as a form of escapism.
I don't think you are in a good place with regard to your fulfillment and general well-being right now. For too long perhaps
PUA has been a bit of a comfort blanket to you and you have relied on it too heavily as a way of helping to rid or sort endemic problems you have.
Go back to basics, focus on elements in life that really matter. Self-improvement is not about getting your leg over, it much more encompassing. By definition self-improvement is about improving the 'self' for your own growth and fulfillment it is not a measure of how many girls you can pull or the quality of those girls.
Phil is right 'Girls are not the be all and end all' and Kowalski's above analysis is true.
I see the oddball Raoul Duke is your avatar, he is not the sort of person you should aspire to be. That is an ultimately, unfullfilled, chaotic, loathesome, lonesome existence sprinkled only with moments of hollow titillation.
As an analogy, to built a great sky-scraper, tall, proud, elegant that is considered a jewel amongst the city-scape and the envy of many. You have to do the hard ground work, that means months, potentially years digging in the cold, dark, wet ground just to excavate the earth and lay the foundations. Nobody gets to see the foundations from which the building stands and all the time, money and hard-work that has been invested in creating those foundations. It is those foundations which are ultimately the most important component of that sky-scraper because without them the building could never exist, without them there is only collapse.
Next time I see you, I don't want any
PUA talk, just to see you well and moving in the right direction.
One of the best things I did in my life was join this community, I enjoyed the whole experience, I met some great people with great insights some of whom I would call friends. Another good thing I did in my life was to then leave this community before it consumed me.
Style at the end of the game also game to the conclusion that 'Ultimately in the end, it is the woman that decides'. Don't let any charlatan try and tell you otherwise!
I think most people in this community eventually come to this realisation. It is good to see this forum giving good, honest and practacle advice that it always has done, it is by the best I have come across because people genuinely care and look after each other here. It is great to see it distancing itself more away from
PUA theory and hogwash and being more concerned with fulfillment and content in ones own life and assisting others to achieve their goals, whatever they maybe.
Take a break from all this Mark, you've earn't it.
Stu (Formerly known as Hustler25)