thanks guys, well this milf who ive been chatting to really wants to fuck.
i did a gay move and pretty much told her whats up. she still wants to fuck (now shes stipulating i'm sober) but i'm a little hesistant/being a little bitch. she said she likes to be in control blahblah so its cool... again i was being a gay bitch and hesistant... shes even said we will take it slow, have a few drinks.. she feels like shes taking advantage... lol for fucks sake. shes already told me shes insatiable and basically a nymph which doesn't help in my mind lol. i fucking hate this role reversal. i know if i have about 10-20 drinks i will be king/not give a fuck.
also thanks for the advice lads... appreciate it since in real life everyone thinks im lieing due to how i am when they see me etc.