Anyways enough about Jaz`s Pedophilic tendancies and on with a rather late field report for last week.
Its been a really shitty week for me as well as being rather mentally non stop also.

Friday 13th January

During the day i was in town and bumped into a m8s gf whilst talking to her half heartedly i saw a girl ive liked from way back when she was 15 and i 17 when we got pissed at a gig she totally loved my pink hair and we ended up in some randoms back garden,however she would only let me suck her tits and she ended up standing me up a coupla days later.
Ive seen her on and off roughly once every 2 yrs but always with a bf.Anyways she pushing a pram and looking bored,i instantly ditch my m8s gf and speak 2 her.It goes pretty well from the off i tease her about breaking my heart standing me up and insinuate she is a bit of a ho as everytime i see her she has a different bloke,she instantly says ive been single for a year now and i cant beleive you said that.Anyways i leave her picking up her other daughter from ballet with her phone number and an arrangement to meet up a week on saturday (i tried for the next day but she was away at her mums,not ideal :S).
My dad rang me saying my uncle has gone into hospital with failing kidneys and wont be coming out,that really bummed me out as well as being pissed off i couldnt be there at his bedside cos he lives so far away
Me and my mate went out in town tho not in the mood but as it usually seems to be on a friday at the mo town was dead and it sucked badly,we ended up headng back to mine after a short while.

Saturday 14th January

I spent a few hours with my personal trainer sorting stuff out to start working out and diet changing at the start of the month.Im rather aprehensive but also looking forward to it also.
I went out with Giant and a few of my mates.Again town seemed totally dead and i had only but a few interactions.I remeber we talked about how much i liked this chick with short hair even tho she was obv a dyke :S (i love chicks with short hair the bummer of it is most are rug munchers ggrr) still im still considering having a pop at her as you never know!! i know a few dykes that have put out to guys before!!
Anyways after being/looking quite underwhelmed Giant went home,unfortunately about half hour/15 mins after the place packed out and it turned into a pretty good night after half 1-2 o clock i had a real good time,and as per usual at the mo i woke up in backups bed (i seem to be fucking her intermittently at the moment,she seems to be head over heels for me but ive made it clear i dont want an ltr,plus shes the only pussy i seem to be landing at the mo)

Shitty week!!

My uncle died on sunday and now work wont give me enough time off to go to his funeral either ggrrr,one of my favorite rats died on tuesday and i went to bury my rat in my exs back garden on wednesday,where she tells me she loves me and cant live without me.Great timing and nope not interested i say in a polite way.So she texts me saying she cant be friends with me anymore etc etc i didnt answer as i thought she was fishing for a reaction but it still blows 11yrs of friendship down the toilet and 6months after weve been hanging out as friends wierd?? plus i have a potential new career on the horizon but means working away monday-friday and i was relying on her to look after the rats while i was away,im not gona let anyone look after my cherished ladies:S so thinking i may have to knock the working away on the head dno yet??

Thoughts

.I felt like cutting myself this week something i havent done/thought of for a long time,obv i didnt as its stupid but it took me a back a lil.

.Three people on saturday including Giant said i looked/seemed happier and more confident,so i must be making a lil progress,plus actually slowly getting a few new clothes in each month means im not wearing scraggy clothes when im out so i look better 2

.right now my game feels like im swimming in treacle im going in all directions but going nowhere,im getting flakes constantly and then i beat myself up for getting flaked its daft and i should stop it.

.People who talk constantly non stop are doing my head in more and more im a pretty quiet dude unless im out i do like to chill.I cant understand the need to constantly move your mouth and say absolutely nothing at all!!

New Technique

Yes thats right kiddies the Lovefish has a brand new pua technique it is known as the "Ticky Belly" oh yeh garunteed to make you piss yourself laughing whatever a girls reaction.
Basically i had my rats out when my buddy was round and started pissing about tickling theyre bellies whilst saying "Ticky Belly" he was roaring at me doing this,so i started ticky bellying him,then anyone who i could possibly do it to i would.I think this is a good bit of fun very self entertaining and usually gets a good/puzzled reaction when you just go upto a girl and "Ticky Belly" them.I did it to loadsa people on saturday night and got a few numbers through using it

Right this week as im here doing last weeks.
Ive been ill and tired due to lack of sleep and fucking backup a lot (shes a turning into a real nympho) and can keep waking me up every few hours for sex!!

I text on wednesday then rang on thursday that chick from way back when i was 17 to meet on saturday,but it turned out to be a flake :S

Friday 20th January

I message Phantom on facebook and she tells me shes having problems with her ex being a dickhead etc etc i leave it after a few as i cba with all the domestic bollox.
I feel like shit all day and am working lates,all day im umming and aahhing about going out.But i pull out my new mantra (i think Phil wrote it somewhere) "you can either stay in and get an imaginary blow job,or got out and get a real one!!!" Backup txt me shes at a girly night in but she wants to see me later,im like maybe im going town first.
Towns a total washout and i cant see my mate anywhere,kinda worried as i havent seen him in ages and he normally pretty much lives at my flat??
Anyways i bite the bullet after and hour or 2 and think fucking backups better than no fuck at all.
I head to where she spossed to be and ring her shes like im down Phantoms house,im like cool im on my way.So i head down Phantoms who looks a bit down in the dumps aparently her ex tried to bash the door in or sumat,anyways she goes off on one crying etc i just hug her and say nothing.We have a decent night,the girls slowly get more pissed and all night i was playing it cool but thinking can i get another 3some out of this shit?? or i wish backup would fuck off cos i really wanna fuck Phantom again ggrr just my head going mad at me.Obv this thinking wasnt good and a few times i was gona leave and go home,but then i reigned myself in saying to myself "if you go they could lezza each other and you would miss out!!" "if you go home your having that imaginary bj instead!!"
So i try to chill, a few times me and Phantom nearly kiss usually cuddled up getting photos taken by backup and they piss themselves when i put one of Phantoms stupid strappy tops on and prance around the house mimicking her.
In the end Backup has forgot her keys at her m8s house who is now asleep and im fucking shattered and just want to sleep,thinking im gona try and crash at Phantoms and fuck her in the morning.Backup is insistant that we go back to mine and in the end i cba to argue so im like ok.So backup wanders of to put her shoes on and Phantom comes up to hung me my mind just goes "FUCK THIS SHIT!!!" blam i pounce and i kiss her and kiss her for fucking ages everytime one of us goes to walk off the other grabs and stops them from leaving and we kiss again,even when backup wanders back into the room we dont stop!! i seriously could have done it all night!!
Phantom is says at the front door you never text me and say you never text me either!! She is like TEXT ME!!
I fuck backup that morning ,but im thinking of Phantom.Why do i never seem to get the one i want:S

Saturday 21st January

I text Phantom,but i thinking she going to flake me...... again!!!
heres our text convo

Me.Hey hows the hangover doing?? X

her.It sucks its just another reminder of why i shouldnt drink,i just cant handle the hangovers X

Me.haha become a monk like me that will stop em What you doing tommorow night? X

her.Might just do that,getting drunk isnt worth the hangover.Tommorow im getting my dog from the rehoming place and going round the parents for dinner.Not sure what time ill be back at X

Me.Your getting your dog back or a new one?? Ok gimme a shout if ur back not 2late as im on earlies:S Otherwise i may have an evening free in the week not sure yet tho?? X

She didnt answer after that.Now i think the my last text was weak i should have just said text me if ur back early and left it?? as the last bit was weak,tho i did sound less available by saying i "may" have an evening free??
Ive just got this feeling she will flake me again or am i reading into this far far 2much?! after all its just a few texts

SATURDAY EVENING TO COME!!

Saturday evening

Backup texts me am i coming out,i ignore her as i want some time out without her being around.So i head out and end up in my usual and low and behold sat wid my m8s there she is ggrr
Anyways i manage to usher her to another pub after a lil bit and get to talking to peeps,decentish night i had a few good convos the best being to a goth chick i was sat with who ive known a few months.I say " You know if it wasnt for him" point at her bf at the bar " id of fucked your brains out by now!!" she says " do you really think im that easy??" i say " i dont think your that easy,i just know im that good!" she giggles and slaps me on the arm,i say " maybe when you finally leave that idiot you`ll come find yourself a real man (laughs)".
Unfortunately as usual i ended waking up in backups bed again

Sunday 22nd January

I get flaked by Phantom yet again ggrrr ggrr
Damn if i ever get hold of that girl,im gona make sure i give her a lay she doesnt forget for a long long time just for pissing me around!!
In fact its either she likes me and Backup keeps blocking her,she just gets off with me when she gets the beer goggles on,or shes just playing with me and im letting her??
Also another thought came to me if id took a risk and got off with Phantom earlier on friday evening instead of waiting till i was leaving to make my move,i think the chances were better than average that i might of pulled another threesome off with those 2!! Damn you hindsight making me see the error of my ways

Advice required

What do i do about Phantom??
i texted her earlier today about meeting 2mora but no answer as usual,obv she could be busy but she seems to blow hot and cold or is cool to hang out through Backup.
Id much rather have my situation reversed ie fuck Phantom regular and maybe, maybe not with backup.
What would you suggest is she just dicking me around and cos i quite like this chick im being played and not realizing it??

Playing devils advocate here the age of consent in spain is 13
would anyone dabble?

its not about age, its about how they look, if she was 13 & it was legal & she looked like megan fox, then ye

Ditto..........

she'd also have to not act like a child.

I don't think I'd be able to stand being around a 13 year old long enough for anything to happen, not matter how hot & willing she was

At least you woundn't need to ask them to dress up as a school girl

Eeerr im starting to get worried some of you guys have joined the Gary Glitter fan club!!!
Anyways i figured out what was going on all by my lil self.
Phantoms ex who treats her like shit is still hanging around and this makes me think im basically being made a back up cock/orbiter,so im dropping her.....till next time anyways haha

Edit shes not fucking her ex just telling him im trying to fuck her...shes fucking someone else but same deal i guess!!

Ive been putting this of for a while so best get to it.
Its been a pretty rough few weeks had a lot of shit going round my head....never good.

friday 27th January

Cant remeber much therefore i doubt much happened,i ended up sleeping with backup..again

Saturday 28th January

Really really good night had a lot of interactions going on,tge best was with a hot brunette who wears horny secretary glasses and insists i always come see her in morrisions.I pounced on her and dragged her to a seat to talk before her and her m8s knew what was going on.All her m8s were like whos that guy,whilst i had my arm round her chatting.I got off with her and was moving onto getting the number etc when there was a kick off outside with a m8 of mine so i had to rush off for peace keeping duties.When i got back she was gone bah
I keep seeing her in morrisons but shes always busy at work and im not gona be a douche dancing about trying to get her attention,tbh in a town this small ill get another crack at her sooner or later!!

I ended up fucking backup again!! tho sex is getting better and better these days (ass to mouth booya!!)

thoughts

This week sucked badly i felt pretty depressed,My flats cold (like antartica) and way 2 expensive on my own.My 6 month lease is up next month i want to move out but ive got no money for a deposit,shared house wont take me because of the rats and i wont leave them or give em away.My m8 (butch lesbian) said she might wanna get a 2bed flat wid me,could lead to some interesting options?!
Or a guy from work who is in a 4 bed house on his own,his land lord wants to move in drunks obv he doesnt want that so says dya wanna move in wid a m8 rent would be £230 ish all bills included.Problem is hes nearly 50 and a total chode kinda annoying guy,i think he would start to do my head in real quickly.Tho with rent so cheap if i could put up with it for 6 month it could give me some options.
So the car has to go i love it its a dream but i need money and im wasting money paying insurance on a car i cant afford to get on the road (£260 to cancel insurance!!) think the tv is gona go also,im pretty much getting rid of all non essentials in my life totally streamlining it cut out all the crap ive acumilated that i dont need!!