all over london, it's full of glory holes.

This forum is good for reminding myself how things should be done.

An example, asking girls for numbers rather than taking action. Something Stein goes on about. It's almost an avoidance strategy to go for a number.
Yes there are times when going for a number is fine but I feel I need to keep pushing things and only go for a number as a last resort.

This morning I deleted all the girls numbers who are not responding (I was turning into an orbiter). Fuck that I want to have value for myself.


Found out I didn't get one of the works Gigs I applied for earlier.
Thought fuck it, I'll go for a walk this evening. Stopped a cute asian girl (again). A little chit chat and told her we should go for coffee.
Put up some token resistance about her male manager being here or something. Took her hand and led her away. Had a cracking little body I felt so smug.
She told me she was going back to China tonight 9pm flight. I thought whatever just enjoy the moment Mark (fuck all that SDL PUA shit)
Sitting down together I had my hand on her knee and looking into her lovely eyes, I felt pretty good.

After her asking why I didn't have a GF I walked her to Leicester sq to catch her train to Heathrow. Had my arm around her midriff, her skin felt lovely 8]].
Went for a kiss but she pulled back. I felt a lot of attraction, shame I won't see her again but another positive experience.

So obviously China girl is back in China land eating noodles or what not. Said if she comes back she will meet me. Deleted her number.

Monday
Number closed young hot russian girl. (agreed to meet me next week, we'll see)

Met Lithuanian girl in street. Blonde long legs you know the type. Said we should go for coffee. She hesitates I take her hand and walk her off (decision made). Chatted lots and I was looking at her crotch quite a lot and we chatted. She has a nice ass and jeans. Was good sexual tension. It was late so said good bye.

Tuesday
Watched Game of Thrones & thought about airbnb.

Wednesday
Car girl:
Text from Unknown number 'hey Mark just drove past you but you didn't see me'
me: who this
Car girl: Vera, how are you?
Me:blah blah

Vera is the russian girl off Eharmony (2 dates, kissed both times but then she 'met someone special'). I guess she's texting me because A) she can or B) because she wants my cock.
We'll see.


Met South Korean girl I number closed on Saturday. I don't buy this 'we're asian girls we don't like to be fucked vibe'. Maybe due to my trips to Thailand back in the day.
Took her to St James Park. Kept hugging her and taking the piss out of her for being a shy asian. She loved it. On the grass I tried pulling her on top of me she screamed and was laughing, people were looking, I didn't care.
Walked her home and slapped her ass (she screamed).
On the escalator home I rubbed up against her and said 'oh that feels nice'. Obviously went for the kiss (a few times). Said she would kiss me next date.

She text me when I was home and wants to meet again.

Lithuanian girl: She's on a course, going back on Saturday. I'm going to Poland this weekend so we've been chatting on whatsapp. Said she can't meet me apparently, but tonight I told her I wanted to blindfold her, tie her up and spank her. She asked if I was into sexting, I said not really. Offered to come to her hotel. She declined. Still chatting.

So Lithuanian girl was not up for fun. I could feel myself turning into a co dependent with her, especially with her moving back to Lithuanian. I not interested in 'long ball'. Deleted her number.

Last weekend I went to Poland for a trip with a mate. Sods law I started to come down with something on the flight over there.
Anyway still went out and did the touristy stuff. End up Chatting to a cute girl and got her FB was going to meet her Sunday for coffee but ran out of time.
On Sunday spent most of the afternoon with another cute Polish girl, 21 had lovely boobs and eyes.

Came back to England, did my last 2 days of my contract. Felt like shit with this cold all week and did not much apart from sleep and plan:
Decided I'm going back to Poland, this time a bit more open ended.
Booked just my outgoing flight for Tuesday next week and 2 nights stay in an airbnb place.
Biggest headache was getting someone to sort out my place on airbnb while I'm away.

Prior to going, will meet Kristina (Russian girl I meet in Street - nice ass) on Sunday and Yihee (South Korean girl) on Monday.
Vera will see me when I'm back.

Thinking I will go back to work in August, will see how it goes.

I was in Warsaw the other week - first time - awesome place, amazing women.
I think you're doing the right thing deleting numbers and just moving on- hope you get some joy soon fella, you seem to be meeting lots of women.

A little update.

Been in Wroclaw for over a week.

Met one of the girls I met on my previous trip. She told me she had a bf but we still had a really fun time together, her showing me cool places.

The 21 year old I met before is in Warsaw but I don't know if I'll get there now.

On Thursday I got the number of an asian American girl. She's beautiful and intelligent.
Seems to be very well connected with some incredibly famous people in America ( She didn't mention - I stalked her social networks, bad man I know).
We had coffee on Friday, there was strong attraction. It wasn't right to kiss though.
She had this dress on which showed off her side boobies. I was looking quite a lot 8]
With it being 4th July she couldn't see me this weekend.

Friday I stopped a Polish girl, she spoke with a French accent. Apart from the accent it was perfect!
We agreed almost instantly to go for coffee now and a tea later. We had tea and we chatted.
When we met later after we had showered.

I'm so much more relaxed with beautiful women then I used to be. Anyway it gets to midnight and I say let's go.
I pay and and waiter winks and me ( A gesture of male encouragement I felt).
By this point I have tried to kiss her a few times but she has rejected. She's a good girl.

I start walking with her and decide to walk her back to my hotel. I've never done this sober to a girl I met on the same day!
I tell her we're going to my room for tea. Some LTR. Anyway we go for tea. Bottom line is I didn't fuck her. But she was in my bedroom (progress) and I'm seeing her tomorrow. Wish me luck, it's been a while.

how did it go?

We didn't have sex.

When we met it just wasn't right to try and kiss her let alone sex. I was tired and so was she.

We spent a lot of time chatting over whatsapp the following day.
It was a very personal conversation.
I was open about what I'm looking for which is just to enjoy people's company and see where it leads to.
If at a moment I want to kiss, I will try, if I want to have sex, I will try.
(Of course I still get excited when I think sex might be coming (see my last post!))
She said she can't have sex with someone she doesn't love.

I told her a lot of guys say they're in love or delude themselves into thinking they're in love to get sex ( I Know I did in the past).

Women are different and I respect who she is, her shyness with me was something very delicate I've not experienced for a long time.

I'm meeting a lot of women and sex really isn't my end goal. If I wanted sex that badly I would lie to myself and others to get it or I could pay for sex. I'm not that sort of man.


I'm heading to Krakow for a few days. Then back to London on Monday.
I have an interview on Tuesday for another contract. I'm not sure it's what I want. We'll see.

I love your posts, but a question...

What do you really want deep down?
Think about that for a moment?

I think that is a difficult question for most people to answer.
What I want changes, based on how I'm feeling, where I am at that moment in my life.

To narrow it down though I'll answer in relation to women.

I want to feel attraction to a woman and to act on it, if it feels right.

If she resists because she's not attracted fine.
If she resists because she is worried how the world or others will judge her, I will respect her feelings but I won't peruse her.
(I used to be a very shy person and it's been hard enough work to change my ways let alone someone else's.)

That leaves women who are attracted to me and will resist a little but not enough for us to have a great time together.


Generally speaking I want to experience life and keep learning by my own experiences.
I want to do the things which scare me.
I want to be authentic.

Things are going okay, I feel closer to being the person I always felt I could be.