I have decided to finally get the balls to write one of these as have been reading through everyone elses and have now realised that through doing this everyone has seemed to have documented their progression well and this has helped them analyse their success/failures and build upon themselves to much greatness.
This is the first of (hopefully) many continued reports/diaries that i'm hoping you'll read and comment on to give me a bit of a hand, especially once i hit some sticking points.
First off i thought i'd start with a brief bit of background about myself!
I am James. I live in West Sussex which i have been a resident of for most of my blinkered life.
5 months ago i split with my girlfriend of 3
1/2 years and this kind of woke me up to my own reality, one that has left me 1/100th of the person i should be!
2 years into the relationship we moved to a town that was close to her work and by doing so i lost all my friends.
Recently i have made a few new mates and a decent local that i now frequent.
My trouble is that i have found that i had become the nervous, shy guy who stands at the back of most group conversations and has the odd bit to add to anything and most of the time get talked over (that is when i'm not already tripping over my nervous, stammering words) The kind of guy that if was to be described by someone, all they could say would be just plainly..nice!!
A couple of months ago i was given a book by a work mate and told to read it, this was everyones starting book "The Game" and although i found this quite intriguing and quite envious of some of the tales, i realised that the master
PUA wasn't my objective.
After reading a quite a few posts here, i have found that my main goal is to be (as Kowalski keeps banging on about
) Socially Awesome.
I am not interested in how many women i can get or finding the perfect woman, blah blah blah, for me it is purely my objection to become confident, funny, to be able to tell a great story, get great life experiences and most importantly get loads of real mates of both sexes (not just acquaintances)!
Anyway...Recently i have been going out with these few mates and partying every weekend. I have started building up my confidence and being able to get involved more but am really having trouble opening (mainly women)! This is one of the main reasons i am writing this as it will force me to do this and get over my phobia otherwise face a slating from this forum!
I am fairly attractive and have had a lot of interest from girls that come into our social group (most of which are of v/limited beauty and am not interested as i a, don't want to get involved with anyone and b, am not settling for "the next thing that shows a bit of interest") but i have not once tried opening to anyone.
I have an extremely busy weekend planned of
Friday = 2 girls leaving party
Saturday = Paintballing + a mates birthday and clubbing!
Sunday = Day of watching footy!
These all have a lot of chances of opening/escalating/etc. so now by writing this have now got no excuse to put everything i have read over the past couple of months into practise and just go and grow a pair!!
anyway.....i will post my outcomes which hopefully will be less boring than this initial post and then each one will show a bit of progression over the coming months!
Thanks