so, I don't mess around with girls at my art school. School's too small, art kids are fucking crazy. I've said this all before.

But, met a girl I really liked. Fucking cute as all hell, HUGE tits (seriously, massive), funny, smart, yada yada. But she always seemed off (quick to freak out), and I never pursued because of it.

Ended up working alongside her several times, and we started flirting like crazy. Things were going great, I genuinely was interested in a relationship with her more than just getting laid, so I wasn't rushing things. Ended up getting high together, and she starts telling me her whole life story. Ex-heroin addict, rape victim, suicide attempts, locked up in asylum, etc. Suffice to say it killed the whole moment right when I was going to turn things up, lol.

Next she starts getting weird around me, starts talking about me behind my back, quick to rage at jokes I say, etc. I've tried several times to patch whatever is there so there isn't anything awkward since we have a lot of similar friends, but she isn't having any of it. So I don't give a shit anymore. I've turned everything 'Lucidfer' about me up about 2-3 times so she and everyone else knows I don't give a damn how she acts towards me. I can no longer tell if she's a habitual liar, insane, if what she's said is true, or any combination.

I guess my point is, I really liked this girl and was telling my friends about her (which never happens), but even someone I think is perfect isn't worth loosing it all over. She was a damn good learning experience to teach that you should always value yourself over others, and that you're the only one you can predict and depend on.

For real, show some respect for yourself. No girl is worth chasing, especially nutcases

Seriously...where are the girls that aren't walking wombs or nutcases? Seriously. I've dated enough now and they fall into two camps...cool interesting sexy nutcases and boring bland vanilla walking wombs. There are wild horses and donkeys, I'm yet to find a unicorn. No such thing...