I find each have their own pros & cons. Sometimes I'll have a shit day where I'm having trouble approaching & think to myself "fuck this, I'll stick to nightgaming" & then sometimes I'll be out & having what I feel is a bad night & think "fuck it, give this up & stick to daygame"
The reason that the above debate in my head happens is that I haven't been pushing myself to my full capabilities leaving me frustrated with myself for not exceeding my full potentials.
I had a realisation last night when I thought of all the changes I've made in my life since I stumbled upon the likes of this forum, & how I've made the fantasies from back then of rearranging my life to put me in the best possible position to have the cool lifestyle I dreamed of, come true. I've done most of that & even more than I'd planned, moving away & all the rest, & now I'm living in the perfect place, here I now stand, yet I'm not pushing myself to the limit become that pimp I envisaged 2 & a half years ago?
I'm being hard on myself, yet at the same time I'm not, because I DO go out a lot now, but it's just that I know I'm not pushing through & doing more than I currently am.
My point is though that this realization & memory of where I was those couple of years ago is going to be my motivation to excel.
I find each have their own pros & cons. Sometimes I'll have a shit day where I'm having trouble approaching & think to myself "fuck this, I'll stick to nightgaming" & then sometimes I'll be out & having what I feel is a bad night & think "fuck it, give this up & stick to daygame"
The reason that the above debate in my head happens is that I haven't been pushing myself to my full capabilities leaving me frustrated with myself for not exceeding my full potentials.
I had a realisation last night when I thought of all the changes I've made in my life since I stumbled upon the likes of this forum, & how I've made the fantasies from back then of rearranging my life to put me in the best possible position to have the cool lifestyle I dreamed of, come true. I've done most of that & even more than I'd planned, moving away & all the rest, & now I'm living in the perfect place, here I now stand, yet I'm not pushing myself to the limit become that pimp I envisaged 2 & a half years ago?
I'm being hard on myself, yet at the same time I'm not, because I DO go out a lot now, but it's just that I know I'm not pushing through & doing more than I currently am.
My point is though that this realization & memory of where I was those couple of years ago is going to be my motivation to excel.
Do you class Newquay as a small town? I went there a few years back and I would imagine there's plenty of 'sets' in the day, especially the summer months.
Dan300 I don't think I'll turn into an overnight approach machine, in fact the opposite, I know if I went around the Quay building the courage to approach I would be a weirdo.