Feeling extremely frustrated right now, so I just wanted to get something off my chest. Feedback would be apreciated, but I'm writing this more because I think maybe it will help me get some perspective.
So recently, I've been opening a quite a lot! At least once a day, and I've started to improve my natural game in a big way. I mean, I still do use a lot of canned stuff but a lot of its my own, and I change it all the time. So I really should be feeling good about this, but I'm not! i'm just feeling fucking frustrated, like a dog chasing it's tail. I nearly went and bought myself a blowjob at a massage parlour tonight. Thats how frustrated I am! And the worst thing is, girls KNOW IT! They can smell it like bad breath. And as soon as they get a wiff, its game over! Now I know your thinking 'mate you must be coming on too desperate', or 'you must be looking at her tits too often' but honestly, I wish that were the truth, because that just comes down to trial and error, and discipline. The truth is, I've got this voice in my head, and its working against me every step of the way. This fucking voice just does not want me to get laid. Every time I start having fun and start enjoying myself, I just get this feeling that I'm gonna fuck it up, and make a tit out of myself. Even when things are going really well, I just get this nagging feeling in my stomach like I'm headed straight for a car wreck, and that then I'll be stranded in the land of sexual deprivation. I think it's like some kind of masochistic shit. Always working against myself, like anybody needs that!! So this is pretty intense stuff, and I need to get my head round it. If anyone else goes or has gone through anything similar, then maybe we can cry on each others shoulders lol.

I know what you mean mate. The self-destructive thoughts creep in as you think about consequences, outcome, what your body language is like, 'am I looking to pushy', etc, etc... basically thinking way too much. I am starting to battle this side of my mindset when around girls.

One of the best things I've put into practice recently, as suggested by Kowalski and Jynxy, is to 'get out of my head'. It isn't consistently happening and takes time to get into that state, but when it does you loose control of these restrictive thoughts and 'flow'.

Part of it is getting into a general state of carelessness, like when you've done a speech or performed a song in front of strangers, and feel like you can talk to anyone and just don't care, and part of it is keeping up this momentum and being social straight away with as many different girls as possible. I have only managed this a couple of times but when it has I have completely relaxed mentally... and the girls know this.

I know where you are coming from I had some pretty bad paranoia issues from doing a load of drugs with the wrong people at college and uni.
It still hasn't gone away fully but like Nova says you need to just not care what people think, the less you care about how well you are doing and what they think about you strangely the more attractive you will become.

Go out with the aim of having fun, don't worry about getting anywhere with girls, like Adam says it's only sex anyway enjoy the whole experience even your failures. Have a laugh with your mates about it or post it on here, we all have bad days learn to enjoy them and don't even think of them as failures think of them as methods which didn't work out.

Hey man, u want sexual depravation and frustration I can beat anything you've got, trust me! When you go out just do the tim thing, infact do it when you wake up and just before you go to bed. Say "I'm the coolest mother fucker on this planet" like you fucking mean it about 10 times. Eventually it will silence that little bastard in your head that's fuvking you up. If all else fails I know a realy cool hypnotherapist that got rid of my crippling aa.

Peace

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This is very true. I have always been a pretty impatient person, especially with people, which is something else I am working on (the list goes on).
The problem is I am getting the good interactions with the type of girls that I want to be around, and having a lot of fun... unlike before I looked into pickup, but I'm actually getting less sex lol. Its a funny old world.
Haha Tom mate, I know a lot of this shit is self inflicted due to the ridiculous amount of weed i've smoked throughout the years. I dont anymore but I'm still twitching and paranoid lol.
Thanks for the advice peeps, its all been good and inspirational. Hopefully I will get to return the favour. I've been reading up on a fair bit of stuff on being in the moment, and getting into a good state of mind- very interesting shit! This Natural Tim character looks like he might have a few answers for me. Also, theres a guy called Jamie something who's done a load of stuff on NLP, which is also very interesting.
Safe as a muthafucka. x