Feeling extremely frustrated right now, so I just wanted to get something off my chest. Feedback would be apreciated, but I'm writing this more because I think maybe it will help me get some perspective.
So recently, I've been opening a quite a lot! At least once a day, and I've started to improve my natural game in a big way. I mean, I still do use a lot of canned stuff but a lot of its my own, and I change it all the time. So I really should be feeling good about this, but I'm not! i'm just feeling fucking frustrated, like a dog chasing it's tail. I nearly went and bought myself a blowjob at a massage parlour tonight. Thats how frustrated I am! And the worst thing is, girls KNOW IT! They can smell it like bad breath. And as soon as they get a wiff, its game over! Now I know your thinking 'mate you must be coming on too desperate', or 'you must be looking at her tits too often' but honestly, I wish that were the truth, because that just comes down to trial and error, and discipline. The truth is, I've got this voice in my head, and its working against me every step of the way. This fucking voice just does not want me to get laid. Every time I start having fun and start enjoying myself, I just get this feeling that I'm gonna fuck it up, and make a tit out of myself. Even when things are going really well, I just get this nagging feeling in my stomach like I'm headed straight for a car wreck, and that then I'll be stranded in the land of sexual deprivation. I think it's like some kind of masochistic shit. Always working against myself, like anybody needs that!! So this is pretty intense stuff, and I need to get my head round it. If anyone else goes or has gone through anything similar, then maybe we can cry on each others shoulders lol.