No one gets any value from your weird subjective ramblings. If this is something you want to convey in a youtube series you must be able to do it with a degree of clarity. If that will take time then let your ramblings about your own enlightenment take a back seat and get on with figuring out how to state it clearly. If they can't be expressed that way then stop clogging up the forum with this drivel. The only person who has any interest in putting up with this nonsense is tat, and he's off in his own world as it is.