Saturday 4th May

Well I've been on a self imposed ban on alcohol since April 13th.

I'm sure I'll drink again but I just want to experience talking to hot girls and not only do it with alcohol in my system. Also I want to see if it helps my emotional state.

Met with Serendipity and Igor centrally and went to a pub (as you do).
Got chatting, wasn't long before some women were admiring are tree. There is a tree in the pub and they weren't sure if i was real or not. They were all married but a nice chat.

Got chatting to quite a few girls plus two hot blonde 20 year old Danish girls. They were sweet but had to go home for their (not required) beauty sleep.

Next went to a nightclub. Probably not the best place to pick-up girls as the music was so loud couldn't really talk.

However I've been making a lot more effort with eye contact and I caught eyes with a few girls and I know I should have spoke to them. It was a confidence boost anyway as I've not been out for a while.

When I was leaving (4am) there was a gorgeous blonde in the coat queue behind me. I hesitated and asked how her night was going, we had some small talk and she seemed lovely and not drunk too. I had a little voice in my head saying 'if you don't make a move now you'll regret it'. So I said to her I thought she was pretty. She almost rolled her eyes . After that I tried to get her number but it was never going to happen.

Anyway I felt great for pushing myself to talk to her and doing it sober. I was actually shaking a little after with nervous energy. I know it's fucked up and it shows I'm investing way too much in what other people think of me (like I didn't already know that).

In hindsight I should have made more effort to talk to her before 4am, she was lovely.

All in all a good night and I feel great today not hungover and my mood is normal.

Got my first tinder date later, seems like an easy way to meet girls.


Mark