I spent the weekend playing American football and a little daygame. The American football I enjoyed alot, my team which is still a rookie team still hasnt won a game, but I am definitely improving at it and since joining have gained about a stone in weight. I've set myself a target of gaining another stone and a half by the end of the year.

Right now everything is pissing me off, after seeing the Finnish girl a second time on Valentine's day she is being extremely flakey, saying she is busy. I sent her a message today saying "Right, last chance though. What you doing next monday or tuesday?". If it comes back win, if it doesnt life moves on.

This game is fucking annoying me, I'm improving everyday but have yet still to get back a date from game. Part of this frustration is also the no porn no wanking challenge going on, which I nearly got close to losing last night. After it I am still going to continue not watching porn but the latter will happen but definitely less than before.

My wing is telling me about a new theory about how women go for people the same level as you a 7 goes with a 7 an 8 goes with an 8 etc. But women have this ability to move up it. This is pissing me off because it's basically saying the highest I could get is a 7 maybe 8 at best (yes I'm putting numbers on it).

I am definitely still looking for a relationship because I am not a one night stand/friends with benefits sort of person, it's just annoying that nothing is falling into place, and I am not getting anywhere close to achieving what I want.