Another update.
Friday met Kerry. She's nice but maybe not as pretty as I remembered her. We chatted a lot and it felt very much as though we were talking like friends. She agreed to meet up again sometime to go bowling. Although I'm not sure I want to travel to Eastbourne again it's a 1.5 hours drive.
Saturday met a girl from LoveStruck. She was nice and pretty cute. Just friendly chat and I didn't feel very relaxed.
I've been reading A New Earth by Eckhart tolle and he talks about how people in the early stages of a relationship role-play.
"I'll play who you want me to be, and you'll play who I want you to be."
It felt like that with LoveStruck girl. Anyway I arranged a second date to go bowling with her on Saturday.
Sunday I had a text from Marzena, I met on the adventure weekend back in July. I had stopped texting her after she had flaked on meeting me for a run (see previous posts).
She wanted to meet for coffee. So we met. We spent most of Sunday afternoon together. I find her very attractive and she has a super hot figure. I asked about her boyfriend and she said he's away. (I'm not sure he exists).
I really don't want to fall in the friends zone with her, hmmm.
She talked about going for run together. I text her saying 'you should join me for a night out when you've moved into your new place' and left it at that. *Next meet with her I will try it on with her or I am being a pussy and not being authentic.
Monday
(Day off from girls, haha - what have I become)
Today
Met Andrea (girl I number closed on Thurday). She's definitely cute & slovak.
Took her to the same coffee shop as Saturday's date, felt like a pimp - feeing my ego but I'm aware so it's allowed
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Again lots of chat but felt I could drift into the friend zone with her. Walked her back to the tube and kissed on cheeks and said our good byes. Have arranged to see her again.
So I am great at building comfort but shit and showing my intentions.
That has to change.
I didn't start the job on Monday, fucking recruitment consultants. Hopefully will be sorted soon.
Mark