Down local town again tonight. Just socialising no gaming.

It felt like I took two steps backward.

I was expecting this to happen at some point because things had been moving forward quite well recently.

I know part of it is the nicotine withdrawal as I've been trying to quit smoking the last two weeks. The patches don't seem to give enough of the drug and I felt irritable all day.

Beer didn't help and I was sending out the totally wrong vibe for being social. I felt that everyone apart from my mates avoided engaging with me. That's normal when you're a stranger but usually I can persevere and overcome that... not tonight.

It didn't help that the bar was rammed and cock heavy. Very few accessible women in there.

The only person I ended up getting on with was the bars resident amog.

another day tomorrow and back on the path, probably with the help of cigarettes, at least for now.