I genuinely enjoy reading your journal Mark

I would say that everybody chooses and that girls only have that power if you give it to them in your own head.

You sound like you're feeling more comfortable with your interactions and you're not scared to get what you want but you haven't quite found your mojo for your self esteem

Maybe somebody else has some great ideas or maybe you just need to be a little assertive leading girls into dates with you and rejecting the girls you know aren't floating your boat...

Just remember you have the power to choose and reject girls