Cheers mate, really sounds quite similar, I know full well that I need to just ignore it and move on. Every relationship I've had since I've held with the expectation its going to end so I've had little issue with getting over it and even ones before it, but this one, I don't know it was just something about her, I kind of met my match. In all honesty I reckon she's just as fucked up as I am, I honestly don't know why I find her so attractive, I can't think of any genuine reason besides her being passionate about what she does (actually I posted the other day about what I find attractive in a woman, passion), actually that answers my own question.

Ah well.