haha exactly!! I was happier when she wasn't a possibility, just working on myself, being in complete control of my own emotions. Now there's a potential for something great to happen..it's messed me up. That's the nature of it though I guess..Nothing worth having is obtained without a little bit of risk and putting your ego on the line. That is exactly why I've shied away from high risk/reward girls for the past year, which was a necessary process in letting my self worth recover after the breakup I think..but now it's time to grab this thing by the balls.

-Update

I cut the conversation last night and went to sleep, she didn't text back after that one. I already know this is a fucking pathetic question, but i'm going to ask it anyway; should I initiate the conversation again tonight or let her. :s