Lovefish. As your friend, I am going to say this.
CMON DUDE !!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! !!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

Things could be far worse.
Don't blame yourself.

You don't NEED these girls. There are like, what, 3 billion women on the planet?

You're putting yourself in a mindset of scarcity.. not abundance.. you sound needy in the posts, I wouldn't fuck you if I was a HB10 with your actions. Would you fuck yourself?

You're better than this Lovefish, Think of the progress from day 1.

There is no hurry, no deadline, slow down, enjoy life