ive realised that there was no point in me loosing my v to pros, it would just hav been waste afterall i woulda assoiated sex with money. I realise ive got deep issues but my psychologist is crap. Im still in college waiting to go to uni and i have no idea wat to do. I need to shut myself off for the months after the exams. im actually scared of the approaching summer due to my non existent socail life. Ive spent the past 2 summers mostly indoors.
The point is i do not have any friends and so this is really not on.

Im literrally clueless on how to make friends, i dont know what to do and ive promised myself that i will not go university if i dont have a social life. Even if i get the grades, imm too scared that i might be outcast'd there . I feel like i have no way out as suicide is not an option but if its possible to fix my problems could any of you help me get started?