Thanks guys for the input i do really appreciate it. Basically it was just that when i first met with her she mentioned about how she gets alot of attention from guys and told that she is pretty insecure, some guy said your not that great looking and it really upset her, so although i would like to tell her no no ur amazing ur really beautiful, u have stunning hair/eyes etc i didnt think i should because i thought im just validating her, giving her compliments, im running the risk of just being some guy who makes her feel high value.. so i was careful to try and avoid this...its always been a problem for me, not telling a girl enough the individual things i like when its a particulary gorgeous girl.. also this i like this girl not because i find her good looking but she has a great personality someone who would get on great with my friends, who i can really have deep conversations with...

She started texting me after she broke up with her bf, and said "are we friends" this kinda annoyed me and i made it clear, "it would be very hard to be "just" friends with someone i liked....and i dont stand for being treated like that, i wont be played around with, getting the feeling ur done with him and now your back to talking to me after ignoring me while you were seeing him.." thats when she told me that she didnt think i wanted her and she was sorry etc, then she said it was a mistake to start going out with that guy and she would love to be friends and i said id like that too. and she replied with, im really grateful.

so i mean i know she likes me but i mean im struggling yet again to understand if i should be letting her know that i like her, does it make me seem wussy, weak... was talking to her on fb and she said did u see my formal pics, i said no (although i had), she was obviously looking for a compliment about her dress and i said nice dress... i mean could i be totally honest and say you look absolutely stunning in it....

dont think i would have this problem with other girls who arent a "hb9" who are a bit more compliment seeking...

also maybe noteworthy she added me on facebook and liked the look of me, she has a thing for "hot fighters" apparently... so that got her intial interest, then i got some deep rapport with her and escalating pretty well chatting on fb, problem was i didnt have the balls to really make very many moves on her when i was meeting her for dates...not going to lie.. i liked her and was nervous and anxious when i thought about escalating, i remember thinking about kissing her but my mouth would go dry and i could feel my hands sweating and my heart racing i found it hard to relax... this comes in practice i suppose...

so im just playing it friendly with her for a while and might meet her in a week or two..as it comes to up to christmas that real lonely feeling is hitting me..seeing couples everywhere...

But im determined to fix this part of my life now and get over my fears and make shit happen..maybe a break from game would do me good, thinking too deeply into stuff these days..


Thanks for reading guys, even writing this down helps me out