Yeah, I've decided I'm just going to do what I want (work from home) and if they have an issue with that they can do whatever they think they need to do. If I was shown the door on the spot (which I won't/can't be) I'd be excited about it because it would make me step up and make shit happen.

One of my main beefs is that I haven't had adequate time to process the death of my sister in August. I know it's not their problem, but they expect me to be in the office because the operations team is "office-based" whilst half of the company such as the computer nerd guys get to work from home.

That is utter bullshit because 1. in my job as a credit controller, nobody in the operations team is reliant on my physical presence, and 2. why does half the company get to work from home and 60% of the workforce can, when we can totally run the entire operation remotely? (which we've managed before).

The reason this is significant to me is that I have anxiety most of the time now in the aftermath of my loss, and working from home in my comfort zone alleviates that. I was bugged into returning to the office by a new manager (who walked out the day I returned) before I was ready to. So all I'm really planning to do is step back to what I was doing a few weeks ago.

It's a fucking power play. They just want people in the office so that they're not paying rent for no reason. Although the acting manager is a very reasonable lady and I'm sure she'll be understanding of my needs. If the company itself refused to cater for that, after all that I've done for them, then I don't want to be connected to such an organisation for longer than necessary.

Aside from that, I feel like attitudes have changed towards me since I returned to the office. I feel like I'm being psychologically pushed out. If I was to express the reasons why I feel this way to anyone it could easily be dismissed as paranoia, but being a qualified student of human behavior, I'm certain of my own experience.

And this is all aside from the year of mental anguish the company has caused me due to launching a half-assed attempt at a big business without putting proper procedures in place and having me on the front line taking bullshit from customers due to the company's inconsistencies. We've almost certainly broken laws in the process.

I mentally left the building back in May when I originally delivered my resignation and they kept their clutches on me rather than just let me fucking go. This is the time to go but you're right, I'm not going to just walk. I'll do things my way.



EDIT: Another thing that's been very obvious and present here is that I had to return to work out of necessity. If I'd stayed off, I'd have only gotten sick pay, which of course, doesn't even cover rent. Whereas, in the company that I left for these fucks, I could have taken up to 6 months off on full pay to deal with my bereavement.

These guys gave me one week of paid compassionate leave.

I know it's not an obligation, but coming from a company where I had so many more benefits, this has left a sour taste in my mouth.