just before you read this you should know am deslexic so there are alot of spelling mistakes - so sorry in advince lol
entry (1) introduction - me and my genral situation
women. a subject that every man strugeled with since like, the dawn of man.
am not vain or big headed but i feel i have been very sucessfull with women
in my life so far, or at least i belive i have done better than most my
age. only recently i have noticed i have, well, you could say lost my
game. not that i see sexual realtionships as a game or women as an object,
i respect women, i mean my best mate is girl - thats says somthing for me
right?

i should explain. i am a 21 year old man from leeds (but i live in
chesterfield, sounds abit betterwhen you say leeds, thats a classy city
full of nice people where as chesterfield, is more chav orentanted lol) i
am curently unimployed, my last job was as a rep in ibiza for summer 09,
you may make an asumption that over 5 months unimployment is a slur on me,
but i can asure you it is not by choice, just bare in mind that i did
return to a a finacaly fucked up england - thanks gordan fucking brown for
that one. i have a small soical crowed in which changes regularly (normaly
due to some big dramma - i hate fall outs you dont get that in leeds eather
ohh and i most people are gay or bi which is why there are so many fall outs,
the majority are very bitchy.) ok back on track, i am a first time writter so
if i drift off bare with me.

i have been sexualy active since 14. am not a
looker, or at least i dont think so. i am overwaight but i know i cary it
well, you know, am one of them fat people that just look chunky and dont
look the waight i actualy am. but i think thats because i am 6ft.2. i have
brown currly hair, brown eyes and a personality that is easy to get on with.
sex is somthing i crave a little more than most. this is i think due to
A.D.H.D. or atention defecit hyperactiverty disorder. but ill explain why
that is a factor later.

so you got a good idia of who i am now? good.
because this is where i drop the following on you and i beg you to keep an
open mind. i have had over 34 sexual partners. i only say that because at 19,
i reached a grand total of 34 and felt shamed so to make myself feel a little
better i stoped counting my sexual partners.

i have i would say since reaching
adulthood, had no serus relationships, not because i dont want to have them,
just because the grils i atract arnt the best ones for me. the majority of
these very sort relationships that i have had has ended because i was cheated
on, dumped for been too nice or beacuse the girl has faked a pregancy and
tricked me. seriusly, this happend, just to give you an idia of how bad my
choice in women is for relationships i will list the 5 main factors about my
latest ex., who i broke my 1 week romance off with the other side of chirsmas
just past. she had just turend 17, wanted to be a porn star, was the girl of
my best mates dreams and lied numurus times about been betten by her perivus
boy freand and lied about carrying her ex's baby. you think thats bad, you should
of seen her the night i took her home and fucked her. she had a fucking pram with
one of those fake electronic babys. i even found out the next morning she had
killed toy baby because she did not rap it up enough. just to so you know
if you hear the name sluty hore bitch, thats me refering to her, after all
i wouldnt want you to get confiused while reading this. so its no lie to
say i have no sence whith women as my best mate ami tells me offten. but ill
talk about ami latter.

on the bright side, when it comes to one night stands or just a good old fuck,
i have never been out of luck, if fact looking my soical crowed,
and the people my age and even people older than me who are better looking,
probebley dont do as well me. thats not me been big headed or arogent, that is
just the way it is. that is, until recently.

in the past 4 months i have lost it all, infact i have had to resort to joining
a swingers club in a near by city to get my sex fix. i should say i have only
attended once it is a very expencive place to go. i have only had 1 sexual encounter
outside the swingers club since then, in which i couldnt cum, although i do hold some
pride that i still satisfed the girl, still not much pride. to use the local slang
she was a truly an ungly fucking minger. so to round things up i have truly lost my mojo.

for months now, i have felt lost with women, unsure of myself and its no lie to
say my confidence in myself has took a serius hit. in the past 3 months, my
sexual life has hit a dry spell, this is the longest period of time in my life
i have gone without sex (i realy dont count that swingers thing, although i would
attend again, it does take the thrill of the chase out of the mix, which is no
where near as fun.) i am a very open person as you will find out and feel no shame
in talking about my sex life and although embrasing, i have to admit i am that
depresed with my situation i mastabate at least twice a day to keep my spirts up.

4 months ago, i was DJing a bar in chesterfiled running an indie night for free.
i got paid in drinks, and got 15quid for a taxi at the end of the night around
2ish. i loved it. the music. the women. every night i got a difrent woman on
my arm to take home. there was even one girl who couldnt wait to get home with
me and i ended up shaging her on the crocked spire church. it was loud and and
dirty sex, so dirty i felt the need to donate 20 quid to the church the next
day from the kind of gulit i felt. thats even where i met the slutly hore bitch.
but all good things come to an end and unfortunatly i DJed my last season with
my mate alan in december, not knowing it would actualy be my last gig. i even
had groupies, who i think were more upset to see me go than i was to loose the
job. its now a live band night. bastords.

since then, i have been stunted with women, unable to talk to the ones i find
atractive, and the few times i have done so, i have been rejected. but women
isnt my only recent unluck in the past 4 months, i fell out with a good freand who
i will refer to as shortny baggins, who chose to be freands with my ex flat mate
(who will be referd to as thief although i dont know why i should not name and
shame the cunt) who stole my sisters mobile from me, stole cash from my wallet,
all this while i was paying for his food, drink and rent. only yeasterday i found
out that i have a serius blood desise called thrombolllia, which i have
inherited from my dad. life sucks huh? dont feel sorry for me though, i dont
life is far too short.

so i have had all this bad luck, that is i say until last week. my dad handed
me a book in which i think has changed my life and my attitudes towards sex.
the book is the game, by neil strauss. the book is basicaly a step by step guide
on how to aproch women, talk to them, learn how to know if they like you and
even get laid! am only on page 102 and i think its the best book i have ever
read. the reason i am talking about this and i have spent the last 500 odd words
talking about myself is beacuse i want to write a book. in the book, neil, a,k,a
style, learns from other people how to chat up women. the purpous of this book
or diary is to show the oposite. i dont have a mentor, i have my self and that
book to learn from. this will litraly be my manual. my diary of not only my
attemps at chating up girls, methods on how to aproch women and experinces as i try
but my own personal life too. you see for the past 5 years my life has read like
a episode of eastenders. i mean some seriusly fucking big drammas, and its about
time i got these down on paper. so now you know. am sure you will learn to love
and hate my soical crowed as i do, even my family and me. i hope the things i write
intrest you and guide you and help you learn in the same way neils book is helping me.
i hope i entertain you with my experinces and give you insite into the femail mind.

Welcome. You're field reports and tips are welcome. The Game is certainly an interesting read and like many it leads you to this great forum. You should learn plenty from this place too.

Welcome man

welcome!
'the game' is just the tip of the ice burg
if you think that is good
dude!
your in for one hell of a adventure!

peace

welcome fellow dyslexic, how cruel was it for the boffins to give us people who cant spell such a freaking hard name to spell for are condition.

welcome friend hope you find your true colours here.