yea guys thanks for the input i think its just my being in denial or somethin, my two best m8s are sayin the same, one of my friends in particular is a perfect example of how he started off with a shit girl hb5 and through having sex consistently got better, i started showin him
pua and he has now found himself an arguable hb 10 ffs lol, i just find it very hard to have sex with a girl i am not attracted it doesnt produce a good feelin for me, its just that i waited so long its hard to say, u know wat, i shud just do it. i think one of the main reasons for this anxiety or watever u might want to call it came wen i jus turned 19.
i was in magaluf, i was with my ex gfs best friend who i'll call stacey who i happened to run into, it ended up she wanted to fuk me in an alley in magaluf, now i was pretty dam drunk but i was still able to recognise that hey im losin my virginity to a girl who was lookin unprotected sex in an alley with a good few ppl walkin past with her best friends ex, classy. i said aint gona happen and left it. now about 5 months later i was in a house party at my uni about 90 miles from were i live, i got talkin to a guy and he asked wat town i was from, he asked did i know stacey.. he had fuked her and so did another guy at the house party imagine me tellin them i did to, but i lost my virginity to her.. it was such a relief to say i didnt do it, so i learnt to trust my instincts. another reason was that my best m8 who was with that hb5 was soo close to gettin her pregnant, i think i have anxiety about being with a girl i dont like incase that shit happens..
anyway i think this is were this all stemmed from, but now i believe that i will have to just do it with the first descent lookin girl who is interested in me. i need to get these skills and practice together if im ever goin to get the girl i really want, i have missed some unbelievably hot girls because theycud sense my sexual inexperience and i dont want tat shit to happen again.