I took from that that he meant he wanted some infield teaching not just infield experience.

You learn as you go along

This depends how honest you are with yourself, and if you can see where you are going wrong.

But sure, you live and learn.

i think the problem is when i first started all of this i was a young cocky little shit who didnt give a fuck. so my learning came from...

What was the last thing i said before i got blown out?

Ok dont say that again!

I never needed inital help to approach or chat but maybe if i lived in a city with no others that share the same interest in this maybe a bootcamp would be an option