Right, well I've not commented for a while as I got luvved up. I trust you lot are still on good form.
So, after some early ups and downs with chasing tail which some of you may remember, I managed to pull a girl who to me was a 10. Stunningly, classically beautiful. Interesting and cultured too, and filthy in bed.
She was complex though, and a pain in the arse, and we broke up. My first real emotional damage over a woman, and it hurt like fuck and still does a bit. I decided afterwards that it served me right for placing too much responsibility for my happiness on a woman, and decided to focus on my life more widely and to hell with women (which predictably led to a new girlfriend).
It was months ago now, I have a new girlfriend, and yet I can't stop thinking about the ex.
Obviously the old creed is GFTOW but I've never really been interested in being a "
PUA" as such, just want to find the right girl and sort my shit out. I feel like I've moved on because I knew I had to not because I wanted to. I did the textbook thing that you all would have recommended afterwards, cut all contact...etc.
I realise pining after the old girl is all needy and fucked up and stupid. She buggered my confidence, and she still has all the drama and bullshit within her. Yet I can't seem to purge her from my brain.
I don't mean to sound shallow but I know you lot will get this, she was soooo fucking fit ! Far and away the best looking girl I've ever known, and the notches on my bedpost are modest in quantity compared to some of you.
I think I need to stop being a pussy and go on a bit of a rampage to get her out of my system and seem less "special", knock her off the pedestal so to speak.
Means breaking up with the new girlfriend though, and I don't want to do that either because she is sweet and I do care about her too.
So basically, this is a pointless moan that goes nowhere!
I dunno...thoughts?
PS