last night was the mother of all fuk ups, by the end of it tho i learned alot and am more determined than ever to get out there again.

basically i headed out to a club with a few girls and a friend, i wasnt in that great a state and i felt a bit 'weird' cudnt relax was jus always tense for some reason. tried openin a few sets but i chose poorly and jus cudnt get ,myself goin. on top of this i was told by another friend that this girl (we had been txting for a while but then she had suddenly stopped, she had my no. 1 m8s number also, but wen i first met the girl she chose me over him he didnt care cos he had a gf at the time) had invited us to a party. apparenltly it was guaranteed sex, as my m8s assumed she was maybe jus playin games with me and was too shy to ask me to go directly..
so i got my hopes up and bear in mind i havent had sex, this was one of the few girls i had thot i wud actually sleep with, she was hot and a nice girl.. so i was nervous and exciting but was anoyed at my low energy state. i managed to get pupmed up tho, we drove to the girls house with another 2 girls one of which i am good m8s with (a friends ex) and everyone started drinking. i cant drink as 1. i was driving and 2. i am in training and cant drink. so it didnt help much wen ppl started getttin hyper and crzy and i was lookin clearly the least energetic and fun in the group. anyways i later on my 2 m8s came and tlked to me and explained that the reason she hadnt been txting me bak was cos i was creepin her out with my messages, i kinda knew this, it wasnt me wen it as txtin her, i was takin things i had read from pua s on txt game and usin it, my txt game is pretty shit, so i thot i'll jus follow some pua txtin sttyle and theres no way it will fail. with me looking about as interestin as a lampost and with the inability to somehow figure a way out to explain im not a creep and spark some attraction. my 1. friend who she had phoned earlier was flirtin away. he asked me wat was happening with me and her and i was in such a pissed off mood i jus said 'fuk her i dont care about her anymore'. my friend took this as an all clear so he started gettin overtly sexual with her, and it ended up with her giving him a quick blowjob as a dare in the kitchen in front of 3 of us. after that my heart sank and my other friend grabbed one of the girls, they went off to fool around, so i had my hopes of sex crushed then got to watch her give my m8 a bj. i was left feelin like a dick. i had built inital attraction for this girl but had destroyed it through shit txt game.
i learnt alot,
1. i need to work on txt game, do it my way, i was coming off like such a weirdo actin completely differently in txts than in real life.

2. i almost forgot to mention the girls kept askkin if i was a virgin, cos thats how i was acting apparently.. the problem was sexual tension, it always had been my problem. so i need to work on being sexual, if i do these 2 things i shud be ok, i have all the tools but i need practice. last night blatantly showed me my weakness and i plan to learn from them.
cheers guys for readin this soz for it being so long, jus needed to get this out of my head any feedback wud be great.

Ask yourself; 'Do you really want to get with the type of girl who whilst drunk gives other guys blowjobs in front of her mates?'.........No, neither would I. That sounds pretty rough-neck. Best avoided. You're better than that man.

Deffo, don't worry about it, you will look back on this and laugh.

You might want to try choosing PU stuff that feels right to you and disregard any that doesn't feel right, if you feel it makes you come off weird.

It's all a learning process anyway you've tried those methods, it didn't work move on. You haven't failed you just learnt what not to do it's just a step on the road to success.