Out of curiosity, how did you find out about the whole "PUA" thing?

I'm guessing that from your statement you must be at least 45 assuming you became interesting in girls after puberty...

Sorry to burst your bubble, but the whole "PUA" thing is bullshit, its completely fake. If you truly believe that your only choice is a "dating expert" then you are beyond help. This woman can do nothing more for you than you can do for yourself.

The only way people will see you for what you believe you are, is if you actually believe it yourself. You're choice now is to either take this advice, and act on it, or die alone.