Yeah I'm kinda bored with this as well now.

All i would say Guyver is I came on here in a semi similar style to you and received similar responses. The difference is I was totally honest and gave myself a bit of a kick up the backside. Nothing spectacular has changed so far, but I feel happier than i previously did.

The only thing i would say is you say you have issues in the past you would like to leave there. If you want to move forward you need to confront them, or they will always be there, and you'll never move forward because they will always hold you back & affect you.

Please take this one piece of advice from someone who has issues from the past, is beginning to confront them and beginning to slowly see past them.