Woah what a heavy first post!

Your story sounds grim, but I will PROMISE you one thing: you can COMPLETELY overcome all those feelings of self doubt, low self worth. Shyness and even depression. If you commit yourself to improving your mind, you really can shape it to what you want it to be. Whatever you feel on the inside will manifest itself in your life. So when you are happy and confident, things will REALLY start going your way. You just gotta trust me on this.

Get your hands on some material. Books, seminars and audio. Knowledge is power. And power is confidence.

Welcome to the team!