The realisation that I still have a long way to go in terms of self-development has been a metaphorical forehand to the face.

For the last 6 months I had been seeing a girl - really nice, but always something there that wasn't right. I felt I was putting more into it than her; looking back, that was a sure-fire sign it was doomed from the start.

It really does feel like I'm starting again. Shot of confidence - I walked through Kingston today doing a spot of shopping, and felt unusually nervous.

Then today I remembered things that Ozzie had told me - recognition of negative thoughts, and facing your fears. And I have plenty of those at the moment.

My goal PU-wise is to be in a position where I am the selector, rather than feeling lucky to have been selected. This is going to take time, but I know I need to stick with it.


Time to start hitting the nightlife again...