Although that may be a part of it I take something too seriously, it's more of an intensity that I apply to menial and large tasks or problems that I really shouldn't.

I guess I'm just looking for something constant that when I reference myself against will make me stop arguing over trivial crap like car park spaces etc.

I think for me earlier in the year I had a great colleague who i worked alongside and although she appeared to be soft or weak, she just turned everything as a positive. I mean everything, if something went wrong it was something to learn or a modification on our processes that hadn't been thought of. I thought it would be Flanders style annoying but it was actually really motivating and relaxing and rubbed off on me where I can honestly say I was the most contented and least aggressive that I have ever been.

I found a great quote by Ghandi earlier when I was searching for bits and peices like this
"Be the change you want to see in the world"
I guess I have to start doing, pop some reminders as my wallpapers, maybe an appropriate wrist band that will keep me in check if I start to lose site of this "Zen" goal...

I think that could well be a part of it. Before I die I want to contribute something to the world, something beautiful that touches hearts, I just don't know how I can transfer my skills or passions as they are into a vessel that could acheive that (right now)

I also find work really easy, to the point where think I would be better suited in an R&D environment as opposed to support/production element. I like to press forward and develop, not just manage, increase efficiency, cut costs, blah blah blah as it's easy and I find very few areas that need innovative thinking to overcome problems