i used to have a bit of trouble here... especially when i slept with someone for the first time

now i can go for ages, it's psychological. This is gonna sound fucking weird but i'm ridiculously squeemish and scared of needles, so i just think about the last time i had a blood test and it just keeps me in check. if i feel like i'm starting to lose control i just slow down or stop for a minute and then get right back on with it.