Yes, I was the lord king almighty of self sabotage, I had it down to a fine art of stupidity...still do sometimes! I once asked a shrink how I can use psychology to influence behaviour, he said you can't, you have to use behaviour to influence psychology. I didn't want to hear it at the time, but he was right. You have to ignore whatever is driving you to evade, and escalate regardless...take "right action" as the buddhists say.

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