Anyway, we did get back together for a bit and it was nice for a while but inevitably went to shit again. We argued about the fact that she hardly had any time on her hands and we weren't seeing each other much. She had her cousins over and was with them the whole time etc etc...

I got the feeling that she didn't feel the same way about me anymore and when we broke up again (her choice) I felt pretty unapreciated. It left me feeling quite bitter for a while actually and still does a bit. I've been through quite a few packs of Camel Blue. I wonder if cigarette companies pay women to fuck with our heads.

I'm sure I'll get over it soon. It's just that shitty feeling when you felt that someone was really into you and then they are not anymore and so you start doubting yourself a little.

She's barking mad anyway. She saw me giving some Russian chick (not couchsurfer) a lift home. When I bumped into her again that night and told her I was just giving that doll a lift, she ended up hanging around me until all her friends had gone home and there was just me, her and my mate left at 7 in the morning. Stupidly, after my mate got his bus, I dropped her at home and we had another snog, which she doesn't remember.

Now it turns out that she's pining after the guy that she chose me over, just because she saw him with a new gf. She didn't want him when he wanted her... she wanted me.

I told her many times she should be with him because he's a nice guy and she just said, "I'm not in love with him." He doesn't want to know anyway and fair fucks to him. She only seems to want what she can't have.

It was good sex anyway... the biiiitch! Deleted from facebook!