Yes that is the idea. I have a much better understanding of what it is I need to do now. And I am working towards it. I do hope to leave the pad behind one day. Well leave it behind in the "I dont need it" scenes. Not the "I dont want to have it with me because I no longer enjoy it!" scense. It will always goes with me.

When I was in high school I had a green pad. No one other than my friends knew my name. But every one know that guy with the green pad that draws naked girls. Even the teachers approved. Except the bible teacher. But he was very much a fruit cake.