Yeah and I loaded a million pounds to give to the puppy dog place, until I found out they put one down. Don't even bitch about what you WOULD have done if we hadn't been so mean. Because now you're just gonna come across as full of shit.

Sounds to me more like you've got your fingers in your ears screaming LALALALA whenever someone points out you're doing it wrong. Because you've decided you know it all despite you seem to be unable to hold a real set at all.

Now your effort is good, and your enthusiasum is great but trying to be what you're not with just enthusiasum and effort without actually listening to advice and doing the CORRECT things you'll get no where.

Listen to people and try again you might get somewhere. Stop just reading books in the interwebs and thinking you're now a genius.

You remind me of Frank Grimes from the Simpsons who cracked and pretended to be Homer Simpson.. he got killed..