All I can say is "thank god for girl #207".

SE - you're an inspiration in terms of commitment and gung ho attitude.

But reading your reports stresses me out a bit...

You're like a firework let off in a small space. I understand the logic behind 5-a-day, but I think you've realised that it can be detrimental to your progress.

I think you need a little more direction and control (only this AFC's opinion) because at the moment you're like a whirling dirvish tearing the place up.

As you said, apply a bit more of your own knowledge and awareness (i.e be yourself) to some of your approaches and you'll avoid those hideous shutdowns like 152 and 200 when they call you out and the game leaves you high and dry. Though I'd say the golden rule is if you don't know what you're doing - just smile.

Take your time, don't stick to the game so rigidly and keep up the diary. It's good reading, if a bit uncomfortable at times, props to you for cracking on.

PS ~congrats on #207 once again