I don't even know where to start... It may be a long post but I need some advice PLEASE PLEASE i am stuck and it's affecting my work and personal life.

So about me I've been doing pua for over 6 years now so I'm not rookie however i have let myself slip.

In this instance thre are two women. One is on her way to been a doctor and the other is a golden standard stripper. So I haven't had feelings like i've wanted to be in a relationship for a very long time until these two women. So firstly I met the stripper we we're talking on tinder for a long time without me knowing at the time she was a stripper even though she told me she did a lot of half naked shoots which im not a jealous person so it didn't bother me what so ever. Then I met her out, totally by luck one night and it took off from there. Staying over all the time, going out together etc... She's in a nice way not mentally stable and i knew she's not ready for a relationship or would ever be but I thought I'd give it a go. So as it went deeper she told me about her real job which again not bothered but she lied to me so i pulled her up on it. Things got worse from then and we decided to leave it. I was a little bit of a mess after spending so much time with someone your obviously going to miss them. So I went out and tried sleeping with girls but I felt hollow and would sometimes get the urge to message her luckily I didn't.

So a month or two after I met this doctor, we got on from the get go we have so much in common and spend atleast a week together non stop going out, enjoying eachothers company... and I have to stress i would of tooking things further i liked her that much which is rare for someone like me like really rare. This is why its affeting my work so much and my personal life because after I tell you what happened you may not understand like me.

So it was her friends birthday we both went on as we do just having an awesome night enjoying eachother and her friends time. Then this bomb shell hit.... Before I start i have to add I have a dark sense of humour which this girl new and she was just as bad as me thats why I liked her so much. But I need to add I don't do it to offend someone ever I just don't have a filter. So her friend has had a bad past which at the time I had no idea at all about it and I said something that really offended her. Again I had no idea about her past and she just got really upset which today I still feel bad for. But she was usually the type to have a laugh too. So she told her friend after that night she didn't want her seeing me again. The bad thing too was they've just moved in with eachother. So we calmed things down hill from there. She said she'd have to stop seeing me. I did message her friend explaining how sorry I was and I didn't mean to say anything that offended her but it still wasn't good enough. However we stilled texted a few weeks after and decided to meet up behind her back... That day she told me how much feelings she had for me and how hard this is for her etc... I know this girl like me but this is just something small that has been esclated so much and her friend is 30 years old you'd think she'd of grown up and not tell her friend what to do but the girl I like is quite weak in that way and would listen. So now I have cut contact for 10 days and nothing yet she wont leave my mind. I know I want this girl more than the stripper so I'd like advice more on this than the stripper because no way should something so strong be ended by something so little as gay as i sounds.

And finally me and the stripper after months have been chatting again and I've even stayed over a few times igniting my feelings for her again which is helping me get over the Dr but I know nothing far is ever going to go with the stipper but... I have strong feelings for her. I need help as you can see sorry for the long post its been sometime since I've let it off my chest.